It's everything really........
I don't have anywhere to be tomorrow which is great. I haven't decided if I'm going to take a day off or not. I usually paint 4 hours a day 5 days a week, usually....... but I'm feeling taxed at the moment. I may just clean. Cleaning is relaxing to me.
My stress level is on super max. Watching people kill each other is felt so strongly by me. I think a lot of survivors have this. Then I went on FB and there was no lack in stupidity on there. I don't need to be on FB. I left awhile ago because I do not enjoy debate or talking to senseless ones. I don't have a filter. I feel things full force. While I'm working on that difficulty I still take hits to the gut that take the wind out of me.
It's not just the murder of innocent lives, it's racism and ignorance, it's watching people spin their wheels and never gain traction because they refuse to learn. I don't mean to sound like I have every answer, I'm just trying to say that some things are common sense but that seems to be lacking these days. IT MAKES NO SENSE to allow the sale of an assault rifle to a civilian. They are only used for ASSAULT!! I don't care what side of the argument you are on, if you can't understand that assault rifles were never intended to be used in a civilian setting then there's something wrong with you, something seriously wrong with you.
Someone passed along a video that had a guy dressed as a coach standing outside the restrooms of what was supposed to be a school. He's ranting and raving about transgender restrooms in schools and how Obama is going to cut school funding to all schools who don't allow transgender students to use whatever restroom they identify with. ..... Okay, how? He doesn't have the power to do that. He simply doesn't. Congress refuses to write common sense bills, what makes you think he's going to get them to write a bill concerning sexual orientation and youth? That video is bogus and meant to make you mad. She had it like it was truth. My gracious!!!!
Throw in the mix that I've had a few flashbacks, which I wrote about. Abuse was a family affair. My aunts had their own brand of evil when it came to the children in the family. To top it off is feeling rejected by Betty which really, really hurts!!! My therapist and I went over the two journal entries about my aunts, the body painting and Betty. It was a hard session.
I'm off Facebook for a good while. I'm not going to be around to watch the match between Hitler vs Hillary play out in social media. I'm not doing it.
My landlord is voting for Hitler and keeps racist links on her FB page which links to the apartment complex's FB page. This is the woman who runs this apartment complex, a woman I see all the time. The best thing to do when I encounter someone stupid is - do not engage. You can't link to stuff that uses the n-word, racial slurs for Hispanics, Middle Easterners and everyone in between and expect everything to be good between us. Girl Please!! I walk right by her like I don't even see her. She is invisible to me. I drop my rent through the slot, period. Do not engage!
Do not mistakenly think I'm a fan of any person in office or running for office. My name will never be on any man's ballot card.
Good gracious. It's after 1am. I need to sleep......