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Escape My Skin. Art. Suicide

*** Disclaimer below

Escape My Skin.
7x10 art journal. Escape my skin, oil stick and ink
I often feel defeated. I run from head, I run from my skin, always in fight or flight.

Dove
Dove - pencil on paper, sketch 7x10

I will smile. I may crack a joke but behind these eyes is a woman who is so tired that she just wants to put the covers over her head and cease to exist. Please, I don't want to do this anymore, let me go. I don't want to laugh with you anymore and I don't want to rise to the occasion anymore.

You're just like her
Just Like Her - 7 x 10, art journal

February 14th is his birthday, him, that boy who dared to take his own life and tear out the hearts of others. January 28th, I'm a hypocrite. There is no plan, no action I'm going to take it's just that it's heavy on my heart and I'm tired.

*** This is not an entry saying I'm going to kill myself. I know this subject is uncomfortable and it's scary but I will not manipulate nor will I ever write an entry saying I'm going to kill myself. I want to be very clear that I'm talking about feelings, not actions or a plan. Like I did before, I will walk in the hospital if I feel I am not able to remain 'safe' with my support system. Like every other subject, I am expressing and processing in a raw, unedited way.  Journal entry titles will give a good idea of major topics discussed.

Today's agenda - Morning meds and more sleep.

Jordan

No need to feel nervous, comment if you'd like.

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