Today is the most important day of the year for Jehovah's Witnesses. I'll observe the Memorial of Jesus Christ's death with my local congregation tonight after sundown. Of course I'll have in mind the other 8.2 million of us across the globe who will do the same.
I am happy to have the religious freedom to attend tonight's observance in person, but I have to admit I'm anxious. I'm anxious about leaving home, about sitting in a crowd and about dissociating. I have a short period of time to get myself ready. This is important to me and I want to be there. I will be there. I just need to get myself together mentally.
Leaving my safe place is always difficult no matter if I go to therapy or the grocery store, but last night's dreams have added to my anxiety level.
It's time I logged off here to get my mind in a good spot so I can observe this day with my whole heart and mind.