Tree Art

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Drawing trees is soothing. I usually draw them bare. I love leaves. i like to see them up close and examine the cells. I recently learned that my sweet potato plant was holding water in the cells of the leaf because I watered too much and too late in the day. Leaves are a beautiful creation but I hardly ever draw them. I like them bare. There's something so beautifully vulnerable about a bare tree.

I love to follow the designs on bark with my finger. There's something so .... spiritual....about trees.

When it comes to art, I have a go to doodle.  I think all artists have a certain something they draw in almost a self soothing kind of way. The self soothing art for me is to draw trees with the branches reaching out, twisting and breaking through the things we can't even see. Branches break through the air, they hold themselves erect when gravity tries to pull them over. I love that they take their place in the soil and let their roots reach as far and deep as they desire.

I absolutely love above the ground root systems. Those are fun to follow, too. Of course I have to peak in the little crevices where moss grows. I admire spider webs and small bugs that scramble to get away from my curious fingers.

When I was a kid I was told that if a person draws a tree it usually represents them. I was told that putting a scar on the tree represents personal trauma. I never forgot that. Despite the psychological reasons for drawing trees, doing so is soothing for me.

Two trees displayed in this entry are Pay it Forward art pieces. You can find them in the Community Grabs and PIF section in my Etsy shop.

The first entry on trees has been posted in the Featured Art Gallery. page.

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Today's therapy discussion focused on family matters: mother's thorough brainwashing and effective divisive tactics, scapegoating, emotional boundaries between myself and all birth family and a recap of nightmares from a few days back. After writing this entry I was reminded of the paintings "Resilience Tree," so I included them in the entry.

Resilience Tree

I was awake all night and until around 10:30 this morning. I had my session to go over the graphically violent and blood dream about cannibals and going to a psychiatric prison for the mentally insane because I was guilty of murdering my child self, the inner child of my sister and the inner child of my brother. I'll pick up more on that topic later.

We talked about the complete lack of protection from my mother: physical, emotional and spiritual responsibilities were ignored or out right withheld.

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I've been once again drawing trees obsessively.

Before girl's night with pizza and a movie, I cut out of here for a nature walk to the park. There were a few families there, separate from one another and weary of each other. There was an uneasiness I refused to be part of. I was there to touch the trees, to look at the bark, search for early moss and breathe.

I came home with walnut hulls that now hold early spring moss.

It was a long day and an even longer night with a still stagnant day to follow. Yesterday's activities with the girl's didn't go as well as I'd hoped because two of us weren't really in the best frame of mind to gather with others and be 'normal'. It ended badly, as badly as a joke. Two depressed girls and an artist walk into a bar.... ......bad.

The pizza was good.

This evening I opened the windows to trade out stale air for new.

Jane is lazy, but not my mind.

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Subject: PTSD from chronic illness, suicide comments, shame, on the upturn, not feeling positive

P17fieldfma - on the easel I wonder if it's possible for a patient to have PTSD after going through several physical pain experiences? This chronic illness torture makes me want to slice myself from navel to nose and and climb right out of your skin because my mind just can't take another second of the current pain.

I fear it. I fear the next flare up. I want to say that while on the up turn from this flare that I'll take advantage of each day I have where my pain is baseline, but I don't feel all gung-ho, lets get back to life, jump in the deep end. I'm not going to jump up and down and proclaim, "I'm happy to be alive!" Excuse me if I don't celebrate surviving that. I could use some nachos but I'll skip the party. I do feel refreshed after such good sleep since Tuesday evening. I feel a lot better but.......... sigh...........I'm shell shocked......and I'm angry.

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Encaustic Rise - Available

Earlier in the day I said, "I have no reason to be awake." Let me correct that please, and introduce what was done with the anger instead of internalizing it.

A reason to be irritated was that, after turning my phone to do not disturb, I still got a call from Dr. Yes who wants me to come in. I can't block his number or anyone close in my care team but I blocked most people. Sooo, tomorrow at 1 pm I need to go in. I'm like, what could he want? I though to myself, Faith, you can control the way this appointment goes by the way you speak and respond to him. You can go in there with an attitude or you can go in there with concern and desire to sit down and talk about things. I have that choice..After a short pep talk I painted. I was mad, good and mad. I don't want to see him but I also didn't want to lay in bed, facing the wall burning up inside.

The process - Sundrip StudioThis painting was calming for me. It's also another painting done in one day. I love wax art.

In addition to this piece I was able to scan 19 art pieces that will soon be in the Etsy shop.

It's funny because, when I was working I kept losing my pen. The first time I got irritated by it I was reminded of our desire to not badger ourselves. It's a pen. I mean, look at my desk, that pen could be anywhere!!! I eventually found the pen then lost it again but I didn't abuse myself, didn't talk down to myself for losing that dang on pen, or the cat !!

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I've updated the Etsy shop with a few new things. I thought I might try digital downloads of tree drawings. Sometimes I see drawings and think, I'd love to paint that. I figure a creative person can take a simple tree drawing, print it on watercolor paper and have some fun for a personal project. Why not? The trees in this entry aren't offered, this is an example of fun one might have with a simple tree drawing. You'll find the trees that are available for instant download in the Etsy shop category Community Grabs and Pay it Forward.


The Community Grab Bag and Pay it Forward section of Etsy
Pay it Forward art is Sundrip quality but is meant as a gift to the buyer. The gift is that Pay it Forward art will be as much as a 3rd less than normal prices. Once you accept the PIF gift you must find a way to make a small difference in the life of another person. Digital downloads will be in this section as well as Experimental art. Experimental art  is art created with techniques I'm trying out for the first time such as art on tiles. They may or may not be something someone wants, but I'll give you the chance to snatch it up. After a time it'll get tossed because I don't want to store it.

I think I might have to purchase a few more tiles. I love doing them. I have to work on photographing these things. I have a cell phone that I'm working with.... and shaky hands. This was taken with me leaning my hands on the desk beside a scarf.

Here is Mary Jane making sure this drawing is up to par. She's been in charge of quality control for years.  That's Bernhardt the Bear behind her sleeping on the job.

Flip flop the firebelly toad isn't employed. As a matter of fact she begs a lot.

I really like crickets
crunchy on the outside, soft on the inside

That's a face only a mother can love. I do, so does her tank mate Steve 'the Beast' Austin.

Pertinent links:  Etsy and Redbubble are where you can purchase art, or you can request a Paypal invoice. See the sidebar for my contact info.

Faith

Sundrip Tea SpotI have so very little lap sang souchong and probably won't have more any time soon. I love that stuff. I've used it on special occasions and with people who didn't know what they were getting into. I only gave them a little though cause I didn't want it wasted.

It's been over a month since I've had a good, formal tea party. I don't know when I'll have another but when I do I'll have Yerba Mate. This teas isn't exactly new to me but it's not one I've owned. One of the things I love to do is look up the story behind the tea. I've discovered that most tea has folklore attached to it. There are so many to read with this one and I can't wait to get to them.

I've noticed that there are several different areas where this tea is grown so I'm eager to taste those, too. I've always said that when you eat or drink something grown in the earth, you've tasted that part of the world. So far I've tasted the earth of 38 countries and provinces. I intend to add to Uruguay and Argentina to that list, places where mate grows naturally.

I can't get lap sang souchong here in Indiana but I can many other teas. I'm nearly out of my Kenyan tea so I refuse to share that.

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Sometimes when I don't know where to go with a drawing I'll hang it up and leave it alone. Eventually it'll come to me.

Child tree

I don't know if I want to go a different direction with her hair or keep going then add a bird or two.

Child tree detail

I'm not sure, so she hangs on the wall waiting for the ah-ha moment.

Child tree full image

I'm certain she'll remain a pencil drawing without strong color added.

Art by: Faith M. Austin

 

A soft white rabbit with a rose colored dress sits beside my very first doll house.

My First Doll House - available

Art Title: "My First Doll House"
Art By: Faith Magdalene Austin
Media: HP ink, acrylic and ink on acrylic paper with small grain
Paper size: 11.5 x 8
Painting size: 5 x 6.25 inches
Finish: signed, unmounted, unsealed
Style: Illustration
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