Pain. Good Mood. Letters. Art

Published on May 13, 2013 in Art, Art Therapy, Lupus Fibromyalgia, Mental Health and Therapy. 0 Comments

It hurts to take a shower, nearly takes my breath away with pain when that water hits me. Even though my pain level is high, I’ve felt pretty good emotionally. For the most part I feel okay emotionally.

I got a letter in the mail from a woman I’ve become pen pals with a year ago. I used to hate the idea of having a pen pal. It felt like a lot of pressure, scared me a bit. I met her at the convention in Ohio. She too has chronic pain which is what connected us. She also has issues with being quickly overwhelmed by sound. So far I’ve written two letters and she has written two. I don’t feel like I have to pump out a letter every week, nor does she. I think that was part of my original fear with having a pen pal. Continue reading ‘Pain. Good Mood. Letters. Art’

So called animal lovers

Published on May 13, 2013 in Humor, Mental Health and Pets. 0 Comments

Craigslist - We know dramaI sometimes go to Craiglist just to read the crazy ads. People get on there and fight and name call like some sort of daytime television show. Then there are type that are unbalanced and militant. Those are the ones that scare me. The Indy CL page is better than TV but frightening in that its real. They’re real threats, real people, real possibilities of someone getting hurt. I think they forget the black and white text goes to a living, breathing, being. They fail to realize that they have no idea if that living, breathing being is sane and safe.

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It Feels Like Home. Dr Jekyll. Art

Published on May 6, 2013 in Depression, Emotions, Lupus Fibromyalgia, Mental Health, Pets, PTSD and Trust. 0 Comments

A bit ago I said I’d know I feel at home when I am listening to music and dance with my tea cup in my hand. That happened on Friday evening :-) I was listening to the song Depth over Distance while drinking tea. I finally got the Kenyan tea I wanted. Oh so worth the wait. It’s wonderful. At first I didn’t taste a difference from your regular old Lipton, but then wham! Flavors. It was earthy, tangy with a fruity after taste. That’s the best way I can describe the tea. It’s awesome, awesome! I also purchased Gunpowder Tea and Alwazah Tea.

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Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde

Published on May 4, 2013 in Anxiety, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Emotions, Forgiveness, Lupus Fibromyalgia and PTSD. 0 Comments

I don’t know. I’m okay I guess. A bit overwhelmed, but okay.

I met with the doctor that I didn’t want to see. It turns out there was 100% miscommunication on both sides. This lack of communication and erroneous information resulted in a patient with PTSD seeing the doctor as a cruel woman with ice in her veins.  I resented her for walking out of the house leaving me in that kind of pain. Even before I asked for a 2 week script with no refills the appointment felt cold. She was cold, unfeeling and flatline. She was mechanical and distant. I thought she’d become callous over the years and that her oath to help had been broken. It turns out this may not be the case.

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The other troubles

Published on April 30, 2013 in Anger and Emotions. 0 Comments

My blood is still not doing right but we aren’t getting clear answers to why.

A huge issue for me right now is that I have to see the doctor who left me in pain, which really pisses me off. The woman let me be in pain for no good reason. She refused a script of Tramadol, refused any pain meds saying they don’t work for Fibro. I know they won’t work on the Fibro but they will give me relief from secondary pain caused by the Fibro. She left me in torturous pain for no reason and now I have to see her because there has been a shift in doctors. I’m not happy about it. The insiders, especially the young ones and Robert, see her as cruel. It doesn’t make sense to them why she walked out of the house and left us in that kind of pain. That thought goes round and round in our head and makes us crazy.

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Health Thoughts and Frogs

Published on April 30, 2013 in Grief Sadness Loss, Lupus Fibromyalgia, Mental Health and Pets. 0 Comments

Thoughts

My dreams are pathetic.
I’ve noticed some breaks in pain levels. There has been some relief, but if it rains then I’m screwed. We’ve had a lot of rain lately.
I still have every intention of closing this blog. I need to figure out how to delete or deactivate the journal but keep the art site. Sundrip.com/journal is what I want to go not Sundrip.com.
My anxiety levels have been high the last few days. I’ve painted a lot, eaten some, missed a lot of meds and pretty much have just gone off the deep end. It’s been a stressful few days with lots of migraines.
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Mikey Mouse Troubles Pt1

Published on April 30, 2013 in Pets and PTSD. 0 Comments

Mikey Mouse

Wow, okay, where do I start? Actually  I’m not going to reword it at all. I’m just going to re-post what I put up on Craigslist. Then you’ll see what the Mikey troubles are.

Craigslist ad for Mikey.

A week or so ago I found a Chorkie dog / pup on CL and talked to the man about the dog. Unfortunetly I have to put him right back up here. Before I go into why he’s up here please let me tell you what is great about this dog I’ve come to call Mikey Mouse. Continue reading ‘Mikey Mouse Troubles Pt1′