The People Behind My Eyes

2:50 PM

I have to keep my boundaries I check. I have to know when to talk and when to shut up, when to move and when to sit still.

The goals for the day are as follows:

1. 2 loads of laundry
2. Wash the dog
3. Clean the litter box
4. Eat dinner

The rest of the day is mine. I do not plan to watch the CD that came in the mail today, Mystic River. I understand that it has some abuse issues in it. That’s the last thing I need to watch. This means Ever After is out. I don’t think The Village would be a good idea either since it has such a somber tone to it at times. Lite movies only today. No CSI or anything like that. I don’t need any extra help to move closer to the edge. I prefer not to get too close to it. I feel myself crumbling so I need to put together a safety plan. Cutting has come across my mind more than once in the last few days. At least I'm not as shaky as I was when I first got up. My concentration is a bit better too.

10:04 PM
I actually got it done, all of it. The 2 loads of laundry, the dogs bath and a pork chop dinner. Man! Very productive day.

I have been craving something sweet big time! I haven’t made anything though. I keep saying I'm going to make some cookies or something but I haven’t. I did make a fruit smoothie. Maybe I’ll have another one of those before I end the evening.

Austin's August

Birds sing after a storm; why shouldn't people feel as free todelight in whatever sunlight remains to them? Rose Kennedy