The People Behind My Eyes

should have been in bed hours ago. the more i read the more upset i get. i was reading about primetime watching a little girl get abused on tape and then putting it on TV as a show. just wrong!

i finally watched Anaconda Hunt for the blood orchid. It was decent, not great but it did surprise me in that the first to die was not the black guy. LOL. I was thinking that in order for hollywood to keep on target they had to kill a black guy within 15 min of the start of the show. it was half way through before that happened. anyway, during the matting ball where the anacondas were swirling around the female snake like she was the head cheerleader of the state champ football team i was waiting for my moment to work on some personal issues. Well, above the mating pit I figure, somebody's about to die. So, just as a guy was snatched in I pictured the mother being swallowed up by this huge snake and having no chance in hell of getting away from it. the huge nasty thing wrapped him up so fast and so tight but he couldnt move. remind you of your little girl Mama, does it? the fear gripping you. you cant move. and this big head coming to you with its mouth open, salivating, knowing its about to devour you and you CANT MOVE. It was kinda nice thinking of her getting swallowed up by that snake. to make the moment of revenge even better the entire pit of snakes ended up covered by mud and rocks so not only was the victim swallowed up but the entire pit was buried.

these things raveged a village and left nothing but death behind. sound familiar? I think it does. hell, all the shit in my head was like dead bodies laying in the belly of that snake. somehow the others in the village got away on a raft or something. the snake ended up dead. it was like, hell lets get out of here. we sacrifice a few to save ourselves. sounds like DID to me, or at least how i escaped and sacrificed any chance of ever being whole just to be able to live for one more moment. anyway though, so we watched that movie and we thought about her getting swallowed up. I really hate her
Robert

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Austin, the recurrent theme of your dream life is Empowerment

You're dreaming about antagonistic people and situations that are threatening to diminish your personal power. This means that in some area of your life, you're searching for ways to regain your sense of security and certainty.

The power I have is the power to not go to sleep.