The People Behind My Eyes

Up Stressing-Friday, June 02, 2006-4:19 AM

The dog and the cat are bored to tears but both are behaving well. I can’t complain about that. I'm thinking about letting Captain stay at Beer Belly Billy’s while I shop tomorrow.

I'm up stressing. When my city makes national news I take issue with it. Somehow I can’t just go to bed knowing that there is someone out there responsible for shooting to death 7 people right in their own home. I can’t get out of my mind how much this city has changed. From a Wal-mart bomb scare to a family of 7, back to back…it’s too much to take. It makes my problems seem small. At the time these people were killed the Mayor was at an anti-violence march on the cities West side. Who knew that as he spoke about non-violence that a family of 7 would be bound and shot execution style? I use to live over there too. I use to live only 2 streets away from where that happened, right by the Women’s Prison. The area itself is one filled with Victorian style houses. There’s a large garage sale there every summer where several streets get together to have one huge sale. It’s pretty popular and a nice place to shop since the area is shaded by the trees. The view is nice too. There are brick paved walks and water fountains, small flower gardens all on a quite little stretch of land. Once I bought a 1940 leather bound King James Bible for $2.00. It even had the gold trim still in tact. I promptly took that baby home to add to my collection. My oldest is a King James Version of 1891; it too is in good condition. I like dated books but I especially like dated Bible’s of different versions and translations as well as languages. It’s one of the few things I collect.

I don’t know it seems like if I lie down and close my eyes that somehow I'm …I'm not going to wake up. The truth is, I don’t really have a reason to wake up but I think I still might want to.

I’ve been looking at apartments still. I’ve got a few that look promising. Tomorrow/today I go do the dreaded shopping trip with Sg. I hate shopping. It’s so dang stressful. We’re shopping for T-shirts, not food so this will be a challenge to get something that everyone can live with. For a really long time now we’ve wanted a red T-shirt. I hope we can find one. This place sells clothes dirt cheep. A few years back we bought our T-shirts for $4 a piece. The prices haven’t changed much there. And heck, they have shirts to fit big girls with ….hm…with an extra portion or two at the top. I call them “the girls.” Sg and UK laugh every time I say that.

For some reason it just now hit me that I can take some Clonapin and try to relax. I'm not use to taking it so I guess I forgot…for 6 hours. Damn! I’ll have to swallow one of them and hopefully in a bit I can relax enough to rest. What tomorrow/today brings …well, it’ll bring it whether I stay awake or head to sleep.

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