The People Behind My Eyes

Hi Austin,

I just wanted to let you know that I have commented on several occasions to your posts. They seem to be accepted, I make sure they are, only to find later when I come back to see the comment no where in sight. Very strange. I want you to know that I am not ignoring you. Your mermaid painting I found so beautiful along with a few others. I am sorry if it seems I do not leave any comments.

Hugs.

So then, is this where I leave the off subject comments??? I hope so…

Thank you for letting me know about the lack of feed on my site. I have made a quick post for your blogging ease (meaning I put a “bloglines button” in the post). I don’t know why I have such trouble with them…

Anyhow, you should be able to just click that button to add me to your bloglines. I always end up with strange font characters over there… Oh well… I’m off for the “last weekend of the summer adventure”

If this isn’t where the off-subject-comments go, I’m sorry.
And if I’ve just babbled too much, I’m sorry again.

By the way, GREAT idea about a comment section too.

Hi Austin

we just wanted to say hi and how are you?

john and keepers

Hey Austin

I just wanted to let you know that I posted the emlimination stuff and I replied to your comments.
You will be shocked at what happened. I know I was/am.

Thanks for the offer for g-mail. For now I’m good with my 9. LOL However, when I decide it’s time for another, I’ll let you know. Okay? Thank you.

Eni

Didn’t get a chance to read this through yet, but glanced over your last post on PTSD and thought you might have a minute interest in this: PTSD Among Vietnam Vets - http://www.slate.com/id/2148541

anyhow, don’t hate me if the article sucks, just put two PTSDs together and thought I’d pass it along…

Yup, it’s me again.
Do you remember offering an invation to gmail?
If you are still willing, I think I’d like one please.

thank you,
enigma

I thank for your comments and your calming words. You really seem to have deep compassion for people. As you may have notice, I already had you on my blogroll but have yet to have the time to catch up on your post. I do agree about the stupid people, they really do need to be in their own a category, they are truly unbelievable . I may expand on the next post or so why I had to flip the script on my blog from being about me basically. Take care and thanks again… madflavor

I desperatly searched your site for a way to contact you. 1 and a half years ago I changed my name, just because I hated my old one. I have spent years in a world of my own making. Last week, on the brink of suicide,I finally told my therapist about my fantasy world and all the lost years of my life. It was the first time I ever heard the word dissociation. It suddenly all made sense. To both of us. I am supposed to see a psychiaytrist next week. I hope to god someone can help me. I will post again when I know more.

hi … here is the general link to the entry and you can post it further on … http://miquie.asarian-intl.org/WordPress/?p=23#comments i know it will go to the comments … but that is the easiest way … share it with all of those who would be willing to read this … it is so important and i totally agree with what is said there …

come back and i’ll come back to yours often …

http://miquie.asarian-intl.org/WordPress/?p=23#comments this is a easy way to get to the entry … go with it and share with others … a lot of people need to know … post it where you want / need to …
take care and come by soon …

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don’t ask what that was about …
here is the link to my comment page post it where you need it …

come back often and know that we are thinking of you all …

Hello Austin!

Thanks for the link. I made a new post out of it and copied the article from Miquie’s site.

Austin..just wanted to stop by and thank you for the visit. I am glad you liked my poems and I know you “got” the poem titled “just being me,us”, which for those of us with DID/PTSD deal with. I have only been blogging for about 3 mos. When I first started looking around the blogosphere I remember coming to visit your site, at that time I was still just a quite observer..hardly ever commemted, then I wouldn’t be invisible so better not do that. However I remember why I started blogging and that was freedom, freedom to just be me, say what the me of the day wanted to say,well surprise, surprise, the world didn’t end, there were no consequences, wow so this is what freedom feels like..to say, write, just be who I am comfortable being right here, right now..yea!! so I kept blogging and now even share things I thought I never would. I have read some of your posts and really enjoyed them..I esp liked the one where you wake up to find food in the bed, leaves in your underclothes..I loved it and it gave me a good chuckle..my little ones do the same thing, some times it’s just nice to know someone else knows too. Well didn’t mean to leave a novella in the comments, really just wanted to say Hi and thanks for the visit , come by anytime, I know I will be back to visit..take care..madd

Hi Austin- I thought I’d stop in and say hi. I’ve been lurking and reading your blog since the end of Sept. I think. You linked to one of my Thursday 13’s and I’ve kept up with your blog ever since.

I think you’re very eloquent. Sometimes, what you’ve said or linked to touches a part of me I didn’t know hurt. Then I kind of hide for awhile, but I always come back to make sure you’re ok. To make sure I’m ok too I guess. Does that make sense? I hope I didn’t offend you by saying so.

Hi again Austin.. thanks for your comments. I see you have changed the theme on your blog.. I like it, take care.

http://indianapsychologist.org/displaycommon.cfm?an=1&subarticlenbr=2

I found your blog through Keepers Korner. I do hope it’s ok to say hello? Thanks for sharing with us. Take care

Hi Austin!

Thanks for posting a comment on my blog (I published the comment, by the way). It was about “At The Gym Today”. I moderate the comments coming into my blog, not for controversial responses to my postings, but for flat-out “hate” postings (I’ve gotten people from the KKK actually posting hate-comments).

I think you took my blog posting a little too seriously. It is to be taken with a grain of humor, girlfriend! And yes I know all about depression and what-not. The posting wasn’t meant to talk down at fat women, but more to make fun of the ridiculous singles ratio in the bay area (go check out one of my more recent posts that discusses this issue specifically).

For the record, I’m not wealthy by any means I’m no longer single, and yeah my brand-new fiance is a little thick (but not fat)… especially since she’s pregnant with my baby LOL

So anyway write me more often (I always respond)! Take care of yourself, and Happy Holidays!!

I wish you a Happy New Year 2007 and congratulations to the new (and nice) design of your blog!

I am glad you found the Recovery bill of rights for trauma survivors in therapy useful It is good isn’t it? I hope you’re well. Take good are now

Hi Austin,

I’ve been reading your blog for months now and wanted to let you know how helpful I have found it. Thank you so much for sharing your own life and struggles this way.

Your post about living in denial really touched me. I have DID. That’s hard to write. I think it is the first time I’ve admitted it so plainly. It has taken me a very long time to accept it. I’ve frustrated my therapist terribly, I think, with my denials. So thank you for that post. Many of the things you wrote about are familiar to me too. Unfortunately.

I want to ask you something but I’m not sure exactly how to phrase it. I don’t understand this whole issue of integration at all. Do you really feel people have a choice? I realize it is a controversial subject, with people taking stands on both sides, but it sounds like they think they have a choice about it. Do you think they really do?

I mean I have no idea how my mind works or why it works this way, it just does. I haven’t made a conscious choice to be this way. So how could I just decide to “integrate.” I don’t understand the terminology much but when you say you wish you were a singleton, do you think you have a sense of what that is? Of how to be that?

Terrible things have happened to me and in many ways I’ve been comforted by the voices that I have. My therapist says when I am normal, I will be able to do that for myself. That is what normal people do.

Do you find comfort in the “people behind your eyes”? If you do, do you ever worry about what it would be like to be all alone without them? You said in that post that you don’t think you would be without them, that you would be the same but symptomless. How?

I’m new to this whole issue. I was recently diagnosed and still don’t understand so much. This really confuses me.

Hi, not sure how I stumpled onto your website, but in a moment of feeling so alone and just kinda lost today I did…Thanks for sharing, I too am on the DID journey which seems so long today…
Most days I can find hope on my own, strength to continue, but thankfully in my small cesspool I stumbled upon you and yours…sigh, I am not alone, I am okay, I will make it and really don’t have a clue why I am commenting I guess to say think you!!! and safe hugs to ya sistah!!!

oooooohhhh we like your journal with the picture and stuff. we’ve noticed you’ve been changing it here and there. we like the changes a lot and it is very very pretty and neat. you inspire us to fix up our place better like we want it too and stuff.

okay, bye… your gem friends
us

Hi! I just came across your blog and read a few posts. I just learned only yesterday that I probably have DID, according to my therapist, and so I just started my blog here and your blog came up on the ‘tags’ page.

I LOVE your artwork!!!

Hello All! I am Beautiful Dreamer’s daughter-in law and she wanted to have me write a few words for her as she doesn’t have computer access at the moment, but will be back online later next week….Her son is progressing well and is out of ICU. She would like to thank everyone for their continued concern and support during this difficult time.Hope all are well! We will keep you posted as things progress. Until then…God Bless, Deedee

Hello Austin.
You (so kindly) posted a comment on my blog asking if you could link back to it, and I wanted to contact you and let you know that I would love to be linked.
Keep doing what you’re doing - clearly you are an inspiration to many.
thanks
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Thank you very much. It is nice to hear that I can actually inspire someone. Austin

I just wanted to thank you for your reply on my guestbook about the Site that was showing porn. Sadly when a site is closed that is survivor abuse related a porn site tends to take it over.

I appreciate being told and will fix it right away.

Thanks again. =)

I am so happy you weren’t upset about that. I was worried. I told a friend that there was no way in hell you knew that was there.

Austin

I usually see you after my therapy appointment, and I want to thank you again (and again and again) for the difference you’ve already made in my life. You are doing spectacular work, both here and “in real life”, and you truly can be an inspiration.
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You are more than welcome.
Later tater,
Austin

Linked here through a comment you’d left on my blog and I’m glad I did. I read with great interest about you changing your name and the reasons behind it. I legally changed my entire name back in 1988 when I was 20. My memory isn’t that great, but I do believe you are the first person I’ve come across since that time that also changed their entire name.

Read some other posts as well and I can certainly relate to a lot of it. I’ll definitely be back.

Austin

Reading your wriiting has open my eyes. I never look anyone in the eye when my kids are upset for fear they will see them or their reaction. I have been feeling like an anomaly over this. But now I see I am not alone, what a reliief. You write with such honesty, it is like a breath of fresh air. Thank you for sharing yourself, it is worth more then money can buy for me to read this, By the way your art work is awesome. If you wrte to people I would love to hear from you. I wish all of you to hve a great day and great life

The August Butterfly

I feel you regarding the morons that insist on forcing their unwanted opinion on people and how this necessitates comment moderation. I have this one jerk that comments on one of my blogs. I hate him so much because of some of the disgusting things he’s said. I even put up an IP block. I must have blocked half the country of India! The only thing I can figure is he goes to different internet cafes every time I put up a new block so he can leave his unwanted crap. What a small, lousy life such a person must have. I wish we could send them all to an asteroid!

Hi Austin. I was just wondering if you’re in to any African American poets? I have two that I’d like to recommend to you; they’re actually both African American females: Wanda Coleman and Harryette Mullins. Of course their poetry isn’t all about being black or whatever stigma might come with it, but they both have very distinct voices and I think you’d find a lot to like from them.

Silly me, it’s Harryette Mullen, not Mullins, and I shouldn’t do her the disrespect.

Reminder! October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. Show your support to those whose lives have been forever changed by the madness.

wow! there have been a lot of comments since I was last here.

anyhow, i just dropped by to say “you have mail”

of course, if this goes to the same email as the one i have you probably already saw what I sent last night.

ok, i’m off to try and figure out what I just said.

ttyl,
Eni

thank you for coming by our flickr site. yes, we do art for others as well, as long as we know what THEY want, or at least have a really good idea what they want.

this site is amazing! and i really have to update all my links to your blog! which i’ll do right away.

take care and i hope to hear from you soon again.
MC

Austin…I didn’t get an email! However, I did finish the meme…it’s posted now.

Hi Austin!
I have not stopped by in a long time, but I found your art pages and made it back here. All I wanted to say was WOWOWOWOW! I can’t get over how your art has evolved and I just love it. It has become visionary, full of a profound healing energy, beautiful, lovely - everything. Wow, I tell ya. I’m cheering inside. Bravo!

Thank you so much. I appreciate it.
Until again,
Austin

Hi friend, Long time not see/hear. How are you. I have a new e-mail address, so feel free to contact me, as I would love to hear how you are doing! Peace