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Blossom The Borderline Bigot: Part 1 of 2

Published on August 20, 2006 in Relationships, Segments, Soapbox and Stupid People. 2 Comments

Blossom The Borderline Bigot: Part 1 of 2 -Saturday, August 19, 2006-10:59AM EST

 

Let me define the borderline bigot. A borderline bigot is any person of any race that makes insensitive comments about another race. They don’t even have to say it in the company of that specific race but it’s even worse when they do. I don’t think of this person as a racist or an extreme bigot because they don’t go around like a hate filled beast spreading destruction in the name of their broken lord (broken lord as opposed to the true loving God). The B.B. type will make racial jokes (any race) or make some racially provocative statement then when you’re mad they respond with tears and spill a condescending lecture about how they aren’t prejudice. There are two main characteristics of a B.B. 1) insensitivity and 2) ignorance. They don’t seem to realize that they are being insensitive and they don’t seem to realize why it is that we are so upset when stuff like this comes up. Case in point:

I was on the phone with Blossom and D* was in the background at Blossom’s house. We were discussing an acquaintance that lost his cat whose name on paper is “little shit.” Blossom said, oh man that’s horrible. Well, D* said something in the background that I didn’t quite hear so I asked Blossom what she said. Blossom got quiet then said with a humor filled tone D*’s uncle named his cat the n-word. She said the actual word. I was furious and when I am furious I get very quiet. Do I expect that from D*? Sure the hell do but I do not expect it from Blossom. She went along with “the crowd” (who at the time was one person) even though what D* said was just wrong. D* has said that word to me more than once and I allowed her to live. I didn’t raise my fist and beat her into the ground. I’m sure some would say that wouldn’t solve anything but trust me, they would think twice before saying something like that again. D* is just prejudice but Blossom seems to be more of a borderline bigot. She’s the careless, insensitive type that when you get offended starts really acting hurt that you feel offended when you “know I’m not prejudice.” But see, she’s the same person that made an Aunt Jamima joke one time then another time she said the hat I had on made me look like I should be out in a cotton field. When she said those things she gasped like, “Where did that come from?” She is a person that makes racial slurs without even thinking about how hurtful they are but I’m suppose to pat her back as she balls her eyes out apologizing for hurting me. Even if she “didn’t mean to hurt me” it doesn’t mean it no longer hurts because “she didn’t mean to.” If someone steps on your toe and then does the common “I am so sorry” does that take away the pain? No, your toe still throbs, the pain is still there and it’s real even though the toe was not targeted for a good smashing. Just because a person say’s I didn’t mean to IT DOES NOT MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY.

I gotta take a breather here. Besides, I’m tired. I need to sleep.

Austin


The Borderline Bigot: Part 2 of 2

Published on August 20, 2006 in Borderline Personality Disorder, Mental Health, Relationships, Segments and Soapbox. 2 Comments

Last night when I was dead silent on the other end of the phone Blossom she said to D*, “she hung up on me.” Then I heard her start wailing. She then hung up the phone. I called right back and D* answered the phone with Blossom wailing in the background. Wailing is not an exaggeration. Remember the movie “The Greatest Story Every Told” where Mary is leaning over Jesus’ dead body crying and mourning the loss of her child? That is truly the kind of wailing that Blossom was doing last night. The girl cried so hard that both D* and I were taken aback. I think my response was supposed to be, “stop crying, I know you didn’t mean it this time or the two times you made some racial slur, everything is okay.” Well, I didn’t. I asked her why she was crying like that. She said it was because, “because I love you so much.” And that she never, ever wanted to hurt or offend me. At that point I heard her become a potential maniac or someone that would commit suicide because you told them you didn’t want to be friends anymore. I was shocked as hell that the n-word even came out of her mouth but I was just plain disturbed by her sobbing reaction to me being upset.

The conversation ended by me telling her that I needed to go. She said, “I’ll see you tomorrow.” That time I really did hang up first.

The level of anger and disappointment I feel right now has flamed right into self loathing. I am angry at myself because I should have told this bitch to leave me alone along time ago. Why don’t I? Because I’m lonely, that’s why. Is that an excuse? It’s the only one I have. So, the girl constantly reminds me of my faults, brings up the whole weight issue (hers, her daughters, her friends kids, etc.) nit picks about my cats THEN uses the n-word but lonely me hasn’t had enough yet. At this point I’ve offended myself because I haven’t told her to leave me alone. So I have a decision to make, will I keep letting her hurt me or will I stand up for myself and tell her to never come around here or call me again? Will I keep being offended and hurt or will I practice what I preach and realize my self worth and tell her to leave me alone?

I’m tired of her crying at the drop of a hat. She burned a cig hole in the floor on the restroom because for some reason she was smoking while taking a (insert that cat’s name) and dropped the cig on the floor. She came out of the restroom so upset. I was like, big deal Blossom. I don’t have a major issue with one barely noticeable mark. The way she was talking it was some gaping hole that the cats could fall through. What the hell were you smoking? Her reply was, “I was about to break into tears.” I knew then that a lot of her crying is manipulative and a source of distraction so that the perceived bad isn’t focused on but her lack of emotional control is.

Here is a side note: Slurs against any race, against men or women and racial jokes will get you banned from ever commenting on this journal again. As a matter of fact WordPress has a place where we can put “blacklisted” words and email addresses. I have included all major racial slurs are on that list. Racial slurs to Black, White, Asian, Arab, Jewish and the like have all been blocked. So when people act stupid and use one of those words or any form of it the comment never makes it on the journal. It is immediately deleted. It doesn’t even go into the moderation box or the spam box. It is tossed in the trash where it belongs. It should be this easy in life, to just blacklist people and feel no sorrow or guilt about it.

Joan of Arc

Blossom The Borderline Bigot: Part 2 of 2 -Sunday, August 20th, 2006-1:43AM EST