The People Behind My Eyes

I am pleased to say that Bella’s prayers were answered. She has not only grown into her eyes but also her ears. Now if we could just do something about her bigger than life attitude. She is getting so big. It was just yesterday that she was trying to nurse off of Gracie’s non-lactating teats. Literally yesterday she tried to nurse from Gracie. Grace use to let her pretend to nurse when she was knee high to a grasshopper but now that she’s much older (by several weeks) Grace has decided it’s time to stop the charade. There was never any milk kid, you’ve gotta come to grips with reality now.

Cap just kinda tolerates her. I can’t say he likes her much but he does tolerate her. Gracie and I kinda like her. All three are sleeping right now but uh, nope, not me. I’m up doing silly art pictures of little knock kneed me. I am bored beyond bored. I should be in bed because I have to get up and renew my driver’s license tomorrow.

Last night was a hard night, another one of those sit straight up in bed kinda nightmare nights. I dread lying down again. I was on the love seat not in the bed but I still sat straight up. It would be safe to say that I’m putting off sleep. It doesn’t do any good because the longer I stay up the more anxious I get.

I’m supposed to go to a therapy group for 15 weeks. That’s a heck of a long time. I’m worried about transportation and about comfortably being able to bring Captain. I know legally I can but are people going to freak out because of his size? It’s clear across town in the evening for an hour and a half. I’m trying to come up with some sort of reason not to commit to this. Fifteen weeks, clear across town kinda scares me a bit…okay, a lot.

Blah,

Me