http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2006/08/27/armor-or-big-beautiful-and-proud-part-1-of-2/ Sundrip Journals Fri, 09 Jan 2009 21:38:22 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.5 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2006/08/27/armor-or-big-beautiful-and-proud-part-1-of-2/#comment-564 Marj (aka Thriver) Tue, 29 Aug 2006 19:19:30 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2006/08/27/armor-or-big-beautiful-and-proud-part-1-of-2/#comment-564 I can really relate to this, but I think it's a little different for each person. I used to always think that, if I lost weight, women would hate me. I didn't know why the hell I thought this. Then I got my memories of my mother's, facilitation participation, and shaming about my CSA. My mother has been obese for a very long time. She told me I was a "bad, dirty, evil" girl for what I "let" my father do to me. DUH! Oh, THAT'S why I thought women would hate me! I can really relate to this, but I think it’s a little different for each person. I used to always think that, if I lost weight, women would hate me. I didn’t know why the hell I thought this. Then I got my memories of my mother’s, facilitation participation, and shaming about my CSA. My mother has been obese for a very long time. She told me I was a “bad, dirty, evil” girl for what I “let” my father do to me. DUH! Oh, THAT’S why I thought women would hate me!

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