The People Behind My Eyes

Bella Is Sick-August 28, 2006

We put Adam’s Flea and Tick Mist on Bella the way the bottle said to. She is having the same reaction Gracie had to the toxin she got into awhile back. Bell is eating and even playing a bit but I don’t think we’re through this yet. I hope she is going to be okay.

Austin

UPDATE: 11:45 PM EST

Mrs. Invincible is doing just fine. She was rolling in catnip and playing earlier. We all decided to crash because Bell seemed to be fine. When I was on the love seat Bell got on top of my blanket and crashed. She was clearly uncomfortable and her hearing was really sensitive. Every car that went by she acted like it was right beside her. She was quite scared by that but she went to her teddy bear rug and did some paw-pawing/kneading and then tried to sleep a bit. She paced, did some scratching on the carpet, turned around a few times like a dog does then got up and paced some more. I could see she was really uncomfortable. She then went in a little corner and kind of played for a bit. I was half way asleep when I heard this horrible cat cry sound. I sat straight up only to find Cap on his feet and Gracie looking in horror at the corner Bell was in. I looked over there and Bell was throwing up…it’s her first vomit ever so it scared her. After she tossed her “cookies” she went to sleep and has been just fine. The whole time she was sick she wanted to be really close to Captain. Usually Cap will get up and move like, “hey, go get your own pillow” but this time he let her get close and sleep next to him. She kept following him like, “hey, where ya goin?” He caught on and gave her a bit of comfort. So right now Mrs. Invincible is tearing hair out of his tail and is back to the terror she has come to be known for. Blossom and I figure she has only 2 of her 9 lives left. She needs to be careful, eh?

I used Adam’s Flea & Tick Mist on her not Hartz or something like that. The people from Adam’s were really helpful but since I’d already gone through the same thing with Gracie awhile back I pretty much knew what to expect and what to look for. The good thing is this product is “safer” than Hartz so the reaction wasn’t as bad as it could have been. The compound is different so she wasn’t nearly as in trouble as Gracie was.

So now it’s midnight and I’m totally exhausted but I have company. I’m not going to be too much of a host because I’m about to crash again. I’m tired and hungry but I’m also not sure I can keep anything down. I’m emotionally exhausted too. I knew how things went for Gracie but this time I wasn’t nearly as panicked as before. I knew what I was doing and knew what to look for. As usual it is after the emergency that I fall apart. I did what I needed to do but now I’m kind of teetering on the edge. I need to sleep again. Blossom showed up after 9pm even though I called her around 1pm. So now she’s here and she shows up crying saying how sorry she is that she’s late. WTF ever! Nobody takes 100mg of Trazadone backed by an antihistamine, a muscle relaxer and 1mg of clonapin “just” to sleep. You can’t tell me that having that after her usual night meds of 250mg of Trazadone that she later needed another 100mg plus all that other stuff. Yeah, she was knocked out and sleeping harder than the dead so yeah, she was unavailable to me. And yeah she should have felt like shit when she showed up after 9pm. People usually don’t take that kind of medication “just” to sleep. She is so dependant upon that stuff and overmedicates to such an extreme that she is often knocked out for hours upon hours. So, she comes to the door in tears apologizing and asking if I was going to send her home. I was like, “Whatever! I could use some brownies.” So around 2 hours ago she was supposed to make brownies but that hasn’t happened yet. She was like, oh and happy birthday. Well fuck that too!! I’m tired. I’m sick, my cat was sick, I remember when the other cat almost didn’t make it and I’m going to bed now, talk to you later. The emotion that comes up with I think about almost loosing Gracie that one time is almost as overwhelming as the actual event. Even though Bella didn’t get nearly that sick the memory of watching Gracie’s body quake like that is still as fresh as it was that very day. I have to leave that alone for right now though.

So she’s in the living room smoking square after square as I sit in here complaining and complaining. I’m about to go to sleep though. I have a little pallet on the floor in here (I switch sleeping places from time to time) and I’m about to turn around and crash for the night. All in all Bella is doing well, Gracie is fine and Cap is still Hero of the House. We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

Austin