I Googled Myself

I did a google of myself. I googled my legal name, my main email address and my on-line name Austin of Sundrip Journals. Too much info out there I do mean to tell ya. I found out too that there is a place in Bangladesh called Sundrip. In just a few seconds I got 19,100 hits for the word Sundrip. I hope I’m not mixed up with the lady who had a baby recently. She and I seem to have the name Sundrip mixed in with one another but on totally opposite topics. I saw like 3 or 4 of hers mixed in with mine. I was like, dang who joined Pregnant Club of America and had the nerve to use my name so it could be traced. I was so pleased to find out this was a white woman who was married with a new baby. I sighed with relief, sheeshhhh! Okay, I’m good, everything is in tact.

So, yes, I googled myself and like I said there is way too much info out there about me. Every comment I’ve ever left on any journal at all, my entries, any journal I use to have, anytime someone said something about me, any spam blogs that used my links illegally and everything in between. Just way too much info out there on the net especially to have come up so quickly. Heck, that was just the English search. I don’t even want to think about other languages. I’ve written on some other blogs thanks to myfreetranslation.com . Lord, I can never hide again. So much for ever believing in anonymity. Ah, and I googled my IP address…not pretty, just as much info out there. Lord, I use to really like that search engine.

I already told my therapist that I checked him out before I started seeing him. I even read his thesis from Ball State. I didn’t look at his credit report because I didn’t care about that but I wanted to know if there was any legit complaint about his practice. Google brings up a heck of a lot which is how I found some of his papers and revisions of those college papers. I wish I had done this for a pdoc a few years back. I could have saved myself some trouble. She had more drama in her life than Young And The Restless. I mean to tell you that was one dramatic read for very little money. Gracious! Her poor kids!

A person can purchase so much personal info about others….how much their house is worth, criminal record, credit report, all kinds of crap. Like I said though, I was only interested in criminal activity and sanctions so that’s all I pulled on him. Had there been something to worry about I’d have pulled the rest. I’d have spent that extra money to dig a bit deeper. He appears to be stable but then again he is a therapist. I am convinced that no therapist becomes such because they are lovers of the human psyche. You can’t tell me someone wants to go to work daily and listen to me bitch and moan because they love the workings of the human mind. There has to be some real sickness to want to go into that field. Maybe they just have some sort of need to see daily that the world is crazier than they are.

I’m sure my therapist sits there thinking, dear Lord I’m so healthy compared to this girl. Damn she’s fucked! Goodness, I hope Dr. W and Doc aren’t reading this right now. this’ll be one of those times when they show up to read an entry and I’m joking about pdocs and psychologists like this. I don’t see them professionally. I just read their blogs. Anyway though….so back to me…….Gracious I need some sleep. It’s 7am and my butt is still sitting in this chair. I got a bit side tracked when the number 19,100 popped up when I typed in only part of my name. The longer I’m up the sillier I get.
that’s all,

time to sleep,

Austin

Please see my reply to J.T.