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Obsessive Compulsive Thoughts-
Monday, November 27, 2006- 3:28 PM EST

OMG a baby! A germ filled baby is in my house. It would be so wrong to go out and start spraying Lysol everywhere. Barney has company right now and that company includes a baby that just sneezed. Why! Why did she bring a baby with her? Dang it! I am resisting the urge to self medicate AND to go out and disinfect the entire house. He’s gonna touch stuff, drip snot here and there all in my house.

The really sad thing is everything paused, it was one of those slow motion type pauses. I was listening to him scream his head off, thinking of all the snot he could be leaving here and there then it happened. He sneezed. My mind went right for the linen closet where the Lysol is always ready for me to reach. I could see in my minds eye this woman bouncing the boy and germs flying hither and thither. I call out “nooooooooooooo”. It was all in this slow motion madness. When I realized I was about to reach for the Lysol I thought to myself, Aussie, you are one sick puppy. I was worried about baby germs, ready to run for the closet. Then, I heard the magic words, “Well, lets go.” Just as I was about to ruin the barely tolerable relationship I have with my roommate his company has decided to leave. Baby Germs and mom are about to leave so I don’t have to go out there and spray that baby. That really would have made things uncomfortable around here for me. Barney would not have appreciated me disinfecting his company. I thought it had all ended when the mom said, “See you later, we’ll be back over.” OMG a baby! Why am I being tortured? What have I done to deserve this?

Aussie

(rocking back and forth, mumbles..why God why? What have I done to offend thee?)

Gratitude Monday
Monday, November 27, 2006-3:01AM EST

I had a really nice week end
I finally got to eat a mushroom sandwich
Lactose free ice cream (Vanilla Almond Bark)
Self control
I prayed my first prayer in about a year
Silly horror shows like Darkness Falls and its killer tooth fairy
Silence
Smiles
Good conversation
Bella’s humor

I bought marshmallows to roast but as usual they were eaten raw. I love those things. Well, I had the nerve to walk away from one and Bell decided it would be fun to snatch it and run. So, off goes Bella running with a big white puff in her mouth. When I got it back she looked at me as if I’d just stolen her fresh kill. She was literally bouncing off the walls this week end. She ran and jumped then did a half flip right off the wall in the hallway. I figure this is why drugs like Ritalin were created, for hyperactive ~~kids~~ cats. She makes me smile a lot and I like her neediness because it lets me step outside of myself and focus on her and the other two stooges. They are all three too sweet for their own good.