Despite bad news I’d say I’m handling it reasonably well. I have a few times when I just crash but I’ve tried to stay busy, even going to my neighbor UK’s house to see if I could help her with household chores. Captain probably never wants to go on another walk again. I walked him twice yesterday and twice today. We’ve been in the yard to play around as well as sat together on the porch fighting over who should get the top step. Cap won but he cheated. He slobbered on me. When I got up in disgust he stole the top step. I think that was his plan, gross Mama out and take the top step. He’s a slobber machine sometimes but usually that’s only when it benefits him. 
I haven’t gotten around to emails or even answered my phone today. It felt like too much but I did some artwork. It’s called Soaring. I like this one because she’s not running away from something she’s running to..anything…hope I’d say. I like the colours too. The rock formation in the corner is rather symbolic. Other than messing around with the dog, watching a bit of TV and PC art I’ve just kinda maintained. Sleep has been rough. I wake up often and when I’m up for good I’m tired about 4 hours later. All in all I’m okay.
the other day a friend reminded me of some advice I gave to her so she could remember that life is different now. I appreciated that reminder. I think this painting is sort of the sign I’d hang up telling myself that life is different now and that I’m safe. Dr. B said its okay to be where I’m at right now and I respect and appreciate that. Nobody has ever said that to me before. usually its a “get over it” statement or a variation of it. I still need reminders that I’m an adult and that I’m in control of my life the same as most adults are. So when I do pictures like this it helps remind me that there was a time when there was no colour, no hope, no chance to ever soar and fly. I didn’t write down the reminder in black and white. I painted it in vivid colours you couldn’t miss if you tried.
Austin’s August
PS. If you don’t see me at your journal for a few days please know I’ve not forgotten you. I’ll be back around soon. I just kinda need to catch my breath.
What a beautiful painting, the colors are just gorgeous. Take all the time you need to regroup (no pun intended). You’ve been dealt a blow with the news of your therapy ending, and need to gift yourself with time to process this unfortunate circumstance.
I miss you, but know you’ll be back when you’re able to be. Take care!
Austin, I am so sorry to hear your news. I know is must feel like a huge loss. It sounds like you just need time to grieve.
Your painting is so pretty. It made me feel so hopeful for some reason, knowing that from your pain, you created something of value that is so beautiful. I love it.
We agree with BD, the picture is beautiful and yes, take your time, be nice to yourself, you deserve it! We will all wait patiently for you, that’s what friends do.
more warm hugs
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