Daily Archive for March 31st, 2007

Gracie – Special Kitty – Blossom

Published on March 31, 2007 in Borderline Personality Disorder, Gratitude Journal and Relationships. 4 Comments

I spoke to the vet and she feels there’s no reason to bring Gracie in immediately and that we can wait until Monday to get her in. What I told her about Gracie is that she does everything normally EXCEPT that she seems hungry all the time, ferociously hungry all the time and thirsty. And she goes to the litter box all the time anymore. The vet said it sounded as if she might have diabetes but that at age 2 it wasn’t likely but bring her in on Monday to have her checked out. I don’t get paid until Tuesday so we’re taking her in on Tuesday. My check goes direct deposit so there’s no waiting for the mail or anything like that. The vet is an $8 cab ride down the street. I’m fine with that.

I’m relieved for right now. But of course worried about what the hell I’m about to get charged at the vet. Whatever it is we’ll make arrangements. Gracie is my “good morning, I love you” kitty. The one that wakes me with a perfect purr and a soft forehead on mine as she leaves a trail of slobber across my cheek. My good morning, I love you kitty will get her care. Here I am cheesing all over myself thinking about her antics this morning. She falls all over the place, rubbing up against me, putting her forehead on mine, drooling as she purrs, making bread dough on my shoulder and just celebrating that I’m awake. How can a person not love this chubby ball of fur?

Something did happen earlier this evening. In my panic I called Blossom to see if she could take me to the emergency vet. I then called to make sure the vet was open. She and I discussed Gracie’s symptoms and decided there wasn’t a need to bring her in right then. I called Blossom back and we talked for about an hour or longer and agreed to meet tomorrow to go to the grocery store. The whole time I was talking in the back of my head I kept hearing, “We’ve made too much progress for this. Don’t do this Austin.” We hung up and maybe 30 min later called her back to cancel. We told her it was totally inappropriate for us to call her like that and not fair for her at all but that we were really sorry and needed to not meet.

I will “gladly” pay another $30 to get to the store this month if it means keeping the peace in this house. It won’t cost me that much this month, thank goodness but the point is, I’d pay it if it meant keeping the peace and bit of sanity I have. I’ve got other options right now and transportation won’t be that difficult if I plan ahead. Round trip via Open Door is $6.00. They’ll take me from my door step to the door of the store then pick me right back up and drop me off at my front step. No fuss just six bucks. I can go to the store 6 times for $30 and not be rushed. So heck, I think I win. So I called her back and apologized thoroughly because I acted on impulse. But one mistake doesn’t mean I have to compound it by keeping in contact with her or meeting her for this that and the other. I don’t want that for myself.

It feels like I have grown in the last few months and I want to keep that growth. I give credit not just to my own determination to heal but to my friends who have supported me via email and by phone. I’m grateful for the support because without it I might have decided to discount all this and go head first into that brick wall I got to know so intimately.

Lesson: Don’t turn a fender bender into a train wreck.
It’s a good thing I have air bags (support) or I might have really crashed hard. Red flags! Arms waving back and forth holding flairs … that’s what I saw when talking to her. Turn back now Austin, turn back now! I turned back.

Austin
Gracie – Special Kitty – Blossom
Saturday, March 31, 2007-11:40PM EST

 

Special Kitty and Gracie

Published on March 31, 2007 in Pets and Soapbox. 4 Comments

I am scared beyond scared. Yeah, I fed her some of the recalled food 3 weeks ago but she regularly gets Special Kitty Tartar Control treats in a pouch which contains the ingredients Menu foods says may have caused the problem. I am nearly sick with worry. I’ve got all the Special Kitty stuff here and the canned Ol-Roy that she ate is here too. I have the receipts. Sometimes I’m thankful for OCD or I wouldn’t have a simple receipt for a can of cat food from a month ago.

I do not have a dime until the 3rd and it’s not as if I can rush her in anywhere offering a cab driver promise of payment. I’ve thought about calling Blossom but damn that means letter her back in my life and I sure don’t want to do that. But I’m not sure what else to do. I have no transportation, my roommate isn’t going to be able to help because he has so many obligations right now. I’m worried. I don’t know if I should call Blossom who surely would high tale it over here and help take Gracie in, that is if her car is still running. I’m scared to death because the amount of Special Kitty in this house is just amazing. Their dry food (with the same ingredient) is Special Kitty and as are the tarter control things (with the same ingredient) and then of course the unopened canned food from them and the Ol’Roy that she had a few weeks ago. It angers me and it sickens me, especially since I found out that these items were on sale just before the recall. What the fuck is wrong with people? It better not fucking be the Special Kitty that’s done something to her. I’m pissed and I’m scared and I’m worried because I know I don’t have a dime until the 3rd but even if a vet would accept a check a cab would not accept a post dated check. There is no other form of immediate transportation available to me.

Austin