The People Behind My Eyes

I am scared beyond scared. Yeah, I fed her some of the recalled food 3 weeks ago but she regularly gets Special Kitty Tartar Control treats in a pouch which contains the ingredients Menu foods says may have caused the problem. I am nearly sick with worry. I’ve got all the Special Kitty stuff here and the canned Ol-Roy that she ate is here too. I have the receipts. Sometimes I’m thankful for OCD or I wouldn’t have a simple receipt for a can of cat food from a month ago.

I do not have a dime until the 3rd and it’s not as if I can rush her in anywhere offering a cab driver promise of payment. I’ve thought about calling Blossom but damn that means letter her back in my life and I sure don’t want to do that. But I’m not sure what else to do. I have no transportation, my roommate isn’t going to be able to help because he has so many obligations right now. I’m worried. I don’t know if I should call Blossom who surely would high tale it over here and help take Gracie in, that is if her car is still running. I’m scared to death because the amount of Special Kitty in this house is just amazing. Their dry food (with the same ingredient) is Special Kitty and as are the tarter control things (with the same ingredient) and then of course the unopened canned food from them and the Ol’Roy that she had a few weeks ago. It angers me and it sickens me, especially since I found out that these items were on sale just before the recall. What the fuck is wrong with people? It better not fucking be the Special Kitty that’s done something to her. I’m pissed and I’m scared and I’m worried because I know I don’t have a dime until the 3rd but even if a vet would accept a check a cab would not accept a post dated check. There is no other form of immediate transportation available to me.

Austin