It’s one thing to be clean physically, to actually feel like soap and water took off yesterday’s troubles. But when the mind keeps vomiting it back up, when it keeps telling you that yesterday is today and tomorrow will be too then is there ever hope to feel pure? Can soap and water wash off yesterday? It’ll just take a few days and we’ll be back to seeing soap and water for what it is, a way to wash the body, not the mind.
I’m hating therapy right now. We talked about how my sister use to call a child alter out that she called “Baby”. She wanted to play whatever game with that alter. She used a baby doll to bring her out. I remember watching myself from the background. I remember standing behind myself, behind “Baby.” My sister liked her.
I use to say I would tell on my sister when the mother got home but every time I tried I couldn’t recall what I wanted to tell. As soon as the mother walked past the door that separated the front part of the house from the bedrooms my mind went blank. I couldn’t remember a darn thing I wanted to tell. Continue reading ‘Soap And Water For My Mind’
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