Daily Archive for July 8th, 2007

Some people are born assholes and others, well, they learn the fine art of an asshole through constant recognition for accomplishments. It seems MacBlue may feel he has the right to be an asshole because of his accomplishments. It seems MacBlue has a wealth of experience and dare I say expertise under his belt. I am impressed by his credentials and accomplishments but turned off by his bed side manner. Dr. T and I once talked about good doctors with bad bedside manners. I told him that I’d rather see a doctor with a bad beside manner because often they pay attention to details that other doctors do not. He didn’t agree with my observation but it was an interesting conversation none the less, one I recalled as I looked up MacBlue’s life on the internet and discovered his treatment experiences and research papers. MacBlue is an asshole but a skilled asshole he is. If he were just an ass with no potential to benefit my future happiness there would be no decision to make here. We’d hall butt quickly, move on to the next person in hopes of getting someone who knows what they’re doing. I see on paper that he has the skill but he needs to show it to me in order for me to look past his bedside manner. Show me your stuff and I can deal with your attitude problem. If you don’t think I won’t word it that way then you’ve never read an entry on this journal. Show me what you can do and I’ll overlook the fact that you’re an ass.

Although Destiny is quite emphatic that she can not work with MacBlue she doesn’t get to make the final decision. It is a group decision and right now our instincts say to give MacBlue a little more time. He may offend on several occasions but that would be a blow to my ego not my healing process. We may not like him as a person but I want to know if his skill level will produce positive changes in my life thereby putting a shadow over his clearly stated faults. If he’s up to showing me more than ego then thanks Dr. T for leaving. We may have a very good find here.

I’m now intrigued by the ass with bad hair. What drives his interest in two particular subjects? What is it about Group A that makes him want to treat them? And what is it Group B that makes him want to research their disorder? A picture is coming together here. Several clients of his in Group A have caught my eye and I’ve wondered if the office is known for this focus of treatment. I’ve not noticed Group B at the office. Still, my main curiosity isn’t the focus of his interests but the origins of them. If his interest is based on personal experience then his intentions for treating are honest and true. His drive is then focused towards good and not based on fascination. That’s a plus for him, a strong plus.

I think if he can actually show me good skills that will improve my quality of life maybe the trade off for dealing with his inflated sense of self will be worth it. After all, we are talking about ego against ego here. I hope he’s up for the challenge. Ego or no, MacBlue has skills but he needs to show them to me…and fast. Without showing me what he can do I couldn’t care less about the big picture.

Morton of Morton’s Pride

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Sunday, July 08, 2007