I’m waiting for Blossom to tell me she’s ready to call our friendship quits too. I won’t be angry….I’ll actually be proud of her for making a step for herself. How can me dumping her still feel like abandonment? That girl has been here everyday since I broke up with her. I’m not sure who is clinging more, her or me. Both of us are terribly sad over the situation. The thoughts that went through my head today worry me. The good thing is, part of the depression is PMS. I did figure that much out so I can look forward to a let up of symptoms in a few days. The good thing about being regular is that I know how long the depression is going to last. I can look at the calendar and go, “Okay, I’ve got three days and I’ll be back to my baseline.” It’s helpful to be able to put this to a clock and pretty much count it down.
I had chuckwagon for dinner. I haven’t had it in years. It was pretty decent. As usual I set the table and lit my candles. I say as usual but the whole candle thing has been a regular at my table for only about two months now. I really enjoy them. I have incense too, jasmine, sandalwood and vanilla. I like sandalwood the best but it’s hard to get the good stuff anymore. I also use a warmer for potpourri from time to time. There’s always something burning in this house. The weather dropped so much at night that I actually got to have a small fire in the fire place. That was much needed. So, I’ve gone outside to hang on the porch, watch Gracie roll around in the grass, watch Captain roll around in the grass while Bell stayed inside. She doesn’t like to go outside. She prefers the safety of the window. I think she threatens squirrels all day and then when she has a chance to go outside she doesn’t because she knows she can’t back up half of her threats. She stairs squirrels down all the time. I can just hear her, “If I ever get out there ya furry little….” But, when her chance comes for her to go outside she runs in the bedroom. Scaredy cat!
Austin
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