Abandon Reason For Today

I’m not in the least a happy camper, not with what I discovered on the net the other day. There’s a blatant copyright theft of mine on the net and it’s got my head going in circles. Well, had my head going in circles. All I want to do right now is go to sleep. My basic coping skills say stay up, eat something, take care of yourself, etc but my mind says, no, I’d rather crawl under the covers and abandon all the things I know work in self care. Right now my roommate has a cold of some kind which isn’t great for him or his OCD inflicted roommate. See, I can at this point make his cold a direct assault against me because as I said I’m abandoning all reason today.

Here’s what I should be doing: Making bread (Not a slice in the house right now. I should be all over the Kitchen Aide mixer but nope, not today.)
Running the sweeper – I do believe the cats and dog now know what its like to walk around in a salon that hasn’t swept in two days but had 20 customers per hour. The Three Stooges are pretty much walking around in a hair cut which has to be seriously itchy for them.
I should step outside and get some sunlight, some globally warmed fresh air on my face.
I should take a shower. Brush yesterday off of today’s teeth. Comb my hair. Not gonna happen.

I should eat something. Spooning peanut butter out of a jar doesn’t qualify as eating something and just because I had a dream about hamburgers and French fries doesn’t qualify as eating either. I wouldn’t accept the dream dessert as real would I? No, not usually but dream bread pudding will have to do for today. Two helpings of dream apple pie will have do cause I’m not going out there to make a pie today. Not gonna happen.
I’m down to the last clean pair of jeans. This means laundry should have been done at least 3 weeks ago. Sadly, I haven’t done a darn thing.

It might be reasonable to conclude that I’ve tossed out reasonable coping skills I know to work about a week or so ago. I have been eating though but I’ve also spent a heck of a lot of time in the spot I’m about to return to. Tomorrow is coping, today is tossing all that out the window for a few extra winks before tackling this blatant theft of my work. Ya know, I started to say I’d never post another poem again but that’s not true. Poetry and art is what I do. Theft is what others do and we both live in this world together. I refuse to stop expressing myself because the man next to me might visit and take what doesn’t belong to him. But, I’ll think about that later. I’ve got a date with a white cotton blanket lightly scented with Jasmine and a pillow freshened with a homemade Tahitian Vanilla aromatherapy cache.

zzz …… zzz…zzzzzzz
Austin

Abandon Reason For Today
Saturday, September 22, 2007-4:18PM EST