The People Behind My Eyes

This dream is from 09-27-07

I was in a waiting area outside Disneyland sitting on a bench talking to strangers. I’d seen my mother several times in the theme park but she never saw me. Just before she left I found it quite offensive that she never saw me so I went to chase after her and call myself to her attention. I called out once but she didn’t hear me. Then she left the park and crossed the street. I decided to approach her but before I could she got in the car and left. She managed to get off the grounds of Disneyland, get out of her front row parking spot and leave in two to three minutes. The person I was with decided we should follow her but she was already out of the parking lot by the time we reached the crossing light of a main street which was two feet from where we were when we saw her go into the parking lot before getting into her car. It was somewhat amazing to see her disappear then drive down the street and out of sight again. The friend (whose face I never saw) told me he knew a short cut to her home and we could meet her there to question her activities. I just wanted to let her know I was at Disneyland the whole time she was and that yes despite not living with her I could afford a Disneyland vacation.¹ When we got to her house 4 cars were parked out side and only two porch lights were on out of a possible four. I told my friend something wasn’t right about it. Just as we did a man came outside in his underwear and asked what the hell I was doing. He recognized me right off. He asked if I was trying to get shot. He said my mother shoots first and asks questions later. The older man said that she would have shot me before she could turn the lights on to see me. My friend and I told him why we were there but the older man didn’t care. He was too upset that we stepped on his property giving her a reason to kill us. He went back in and shut the door. My friend pointed to the tree in his yard and said he recognized it as being the same type the mother parked under, it was a Cyprus tree he said. ²

Footnote 1- In the real life nightmare with my mother she raised me to be totally dependent upon her. She raised me to believe I could not live without her. She had me so convinced that when I left the state alone I actually wondered if I’d cease to exist. She told me I’d starve, the world would come after me and ravage me and she was the only person I could trust. My exaggerated sense of self reliance I’m sure is based on the need to prove I can make it without her.

Footnote 2 – The house this faceless friend and I went to in the dream turned out to be the home I live in right now. It was my roommate Barney that answered the door in his underwear and who was annoyed that I put myself in danger on his property.

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