Pay attention to Renea and Milwaukee, we don’t want to lose Renea. Milwaukee is feeling the strain of losing Blossom. Renea is crying a lot. I can hear her. We need to give them some time out to hang and just be. They need an outlet. Even though we are working on our stuff individually we need to stop for a second and help each other through their stuff. It’s been known to the group that when the littles do well the rest of us do well. We need to pay attention to these particular little ones.
The body needs to be in bed by 2am and up by 9am, no if ands or buts about it. You need to work within those hours, figure out how to do it. If we aren’t getting enough sleep then go to bed earlier than 2am but please be up at 9am. Sleeping all day long, not showering, it’s not going to fly. You know how to take care of yourselves and I need each of you to do the job you were given to do.
Connie, we don’t live with the mother anymore so you need to shut up. No more contradictions, no more telling us we’re a loser, aren’t worth anything. You aren’t allowed to speak right now, shut up. I know why you say what you say but we don’t need it. You’ve been given a chaperon who will stay with you for a bit and let you experience some of the positive stuff we have in our life. We need you to see we don’t require bad mouthing to get motivated, to keep our guard up. During this time I need you to be quiet. It seems harsh to tell you to shut up but if you talk all through out this time with No One then you won’t get to see where we are and who we are. I need you to be quiet for a time. Connie, we aren’t angry we’re concerned for you and for the safety of the group.
Our therapy session was hard. For those who were not there here are the notes:
Talked about going out with friends. Talked about being raised to fear and hate men. Talked about how the head of the group is male. He thought that was interesting. He asked how it is to try and juggle straight alters and gay alters. Difficult at best. He asked if we consider ourselves bi-sexual or lesbian. Talked briefly about the marriage and waking up in it. Talked about Blossom and being angry about the break up. Talked about how she wanted to switch roles from us being “the doer” and her being on the receiving end. We believe us not being able to be on the receiving end forced her to look elsewhere for sex. Talked about the flashbacks that followed being on the receiving end especially when she’s day, “Mommy that feels good.” It made me want to beat the living shit out of her. It was cruel. The therapist asked if during sexual abuse with the mother if we were “the doer.” He put it in those words. I think he put it in those words because we were using that term concerning our relationship and who did what. But when he said it Renea came out frightened. She’s frightened. Milwaukee followed and said she didn’t want to be here, said she wants to go home. We left shortly after that. Came home and walked Captain, he’s dog tired as they say. We still need to make sure Milwaukee and Renea are feeling safe and know what year it is.
The T is easily distracted by details of who each of us are/is as individuals. That’s okay if we don’t have any other issues to discuss. It was good that No One got him back on track. We came in with notes and that was good too. I personally like this guy. I think he’ll work out just fine. He knew I was there early in the session because No One told him I was there. My voice is deeper than ya’lls. No One told the T how to know when it’s me. I hope to not show up again. I wanted to see for myself who this guy is. You know I don’t trust my Pride to just anyone. He’s nothing like MacBlue. I didn’t see a reason to be uneasy with him. Move forward please.
Today’s goals are: 1 load of whites, run the sweeper, eat a full dinner. Monday night TV sucks so we’ll do the above.
Morton of Morton’s Pride
Therapy Notes and Note To Morton’s Pride
Monday, October 15, 2007-3:59PM EST
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