I need to break this anger streak I’m in right now. I woke up today and thought, “Great, the sun is shining, damn it!” I put the covers back over my head and went back to sleep. My phone has been ringing off the friggin hook, enough so that I turned off the ringer again. I’m annoyed and irritated by the slightest things…CAPTAIN is on every single nerve I have!!! Since the sun is shining he can spend a good amount of today outside where he won’t be victim to anger spills.
It’s been a very long time since the alter with the weak left side has been out. I’ve noticed we’re favoring that side a bit. She has something going on with her left leg. It kind of kicks out when she walks. The left arm stays really close to the body, almost curled up at times…not like with MS or a disorder like that. It’s hard to explain. It stays close to the body, wrist turned to the chest, motionless. Hang on, I know why she’s been out. Argh!!!! Our therapy discussions have been about body memories. I know exactly why she’s been around.
I wish I could go swimming. Okay, that was out of the blue. Heck, I don’t even do water but for some reason I really want to go swimming. Alone, of course cause people get on my nerves. What is wrong with me? My goodness!
I’m not making anymore candles today either. I may be a bit burnt out on that. I want to sew something. I’ve been wanting to sew for a few weeks now but I haven’t done it. I’ve got a little bedtime cap (yes, I wear a cap to bed) that needs to be fixed. I’ve wanted to sew a doll for a long time but I haven’t done it. I should start that. Can I stay big long enough to do it though? Maybe I should take a walk and try to work off some of this ….???? I don’t know. It’s generalized anger and annoyance.
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Angry Annoyed Irritated and Everything in Between
Sunday, October 28, 2007-1:26PM EST
It must be the weather. I have found myself also with generalized frustration and annoyance. When someone asks me if everything’s OK, I just growl and gutteral growl at them. It’s got to be the abrupt autumn. I keep hoping that my temper straightens out soon.
You seemed to have an insight when you connected your recent therapy topics with that alter that’s been out a lot — I hope that insight helps you through this period of anger.
Oh, I so hate days like that. I’ve had my fair share lately. When I’m just in a pissy mood and I have no idea why. It’s worse for me to feel that way with no explanation, than when I have good reason to feel the way I do. It’s frustrating and confusing to say the least.