Comments on: This Perversion Does Not Belong To Me http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/ Sundrip Journals Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:23:03 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.5 By: jay http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2745 jay Wed, 20 Feb 2008 15:20:38 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2745 Around the time last year-the last few weeks of my fathers life-my son and his wife drove us up to Georgia to see him. On the way there we stopped at a photography place where my son had taken a video that contained all my family movies from being a baby and on up to early teens-my Dad kept good record of things. That night after returning home-a long drive back from seeing my father laying there all helpless...I sat and watched the video now turned DVD so it could be preserved longer-thanks to my son and his wife. Seeing myself with my Dad as a little boy really freaked me out and made me cry Austin...who was I then? There I was-innocent,and-it seemed my father loved me in those films...but who was I,where is that litle boy? Great great piece you wrote here and it sounds so familier. My mother said the other day "I 'saw' some of what you have written-and I dont like it'. Well-she said 'saw'....not read ( Ma's 84) but I know she did not get on the computer and find herself...she aint that bright! My brother and-most likely-his wife 'told' her some of the things...you see,there is long lasting stigma from my family-the barracks D incident was NEVER discussed in my family,I was just a loozer who couldnt make it through the Navy-thats all they saw. So my sister-in-law uses this all the time-even still...toooo (my brother went through it (Navy) to retirement-like I was planning to do)complicated to try to explain-but yet,subliminaly the hurting keeps going on-the punishment keeps happening. They are so clueless... You said a very powerful lot here to me Austin-thank you for directing me here today! Jay Around the time last year-the last few weeks of my fathers life-my son and his wife drove us up to Georgia to see him.
On the way there we stopped at a photography place where my son had taken a video that contained all my family movies from being a baby and on up to early teens-my Dad kept good record of things.
That night after returning home-a long drive back from seeing my father laying there all helpless…I sat and watched the video now turned DVD so it could be preserved longer-thanks to my son and his wife.
Seeing myself with my Dad as a little boy really freaked me out and made me cry Austin…who was I then? There I was-innocent,and-it seemed my father loved me in those films…but who was I,where is that litle boy?
Great great piece you wrote here and it sounds so familier.
My mother said the other day “I ’saw’ some of what you have written-and I dont like it’.
Well-she said ’saw’….not read ( Ma’s 84) but I know she did not get on the computer and find herself…she aint that bright!
My brother and-most likely-his wife ‘told’ her some of the things…you see,there is long lasting stigma from my family-the barracks D incident was NEVER discussed in my family,I was just a loozer who couldnt make it through the Navy-thats all they saw.
So my sister-in-law uses this all the time-even still…toooo (my brother went through it (Navy) to retirement-like I was planning to do)complicated to try to explain-but yet,subliminaly the hurting keeps going on-the punishment keeps happening.
They are so clueless…
You said a very powerful lot here to me Austin-thank you for directing me here today!
Jay

]]> By: Cheesemeister http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2247 Cheesemeister Mon, 10 Dec 2007 07:11:58 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2247 The sad thing is, no matter how much we realize it logically, there is always that horrible voice that says that somehow we, the victims, attracted the perveted acts against us. The voice can be pushed down but it can never be completely silenced. We have to shout the truth at it and at least drown it out for a while. We all want to be loved. It's an unforgiveable crime on the part of a perp who takes advantage of that need. The sad thing is, no matter how much we realize it logically, there is always that horrible voice that says that somehow we, the victims, attracted the perveted acts against us. The voice can be pushed down but it can never be completely silenced. We have to shout the truth at it and at least drown it out for a while. We all want to be loved. It’s an unforgiveable crime on the part of a perp who takes advantage of that need.

]]> By: F.Magdalene http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2233 F.Magdalene Thu, 06 Dec 2007 07:42:20 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2007/12/01/this-perversion-does-not-belong-to-me/#comment-2233 Hey there Ashe.Selah, It's not the lightest post I've ever written. As a matter of fact I've read it several times and I lose myself half way through each time. By the time I get to the end I have to read it again. Basically I'm saying if I personally don't know what comment I'd leave on my own entry (LOL) then comments like, "not alot left to say" are so very appropriate and understandable. I'm supposed to copy it off and bring it in to my therapist. later, Aussie Hey there Ashe.Selah,
It’s not the lightest post I’ve ever written. As a matter of fact I’ve read it several times and I lose myself half way through each time. By the time I get to the end I have to read it again. Basically I’m saying if I personally don’t know what comment I’d leave on my own entry (LOL) then comments like, “not alot left to say” are so very appropriate and understandable.

I’m supposed to copy it off and bring it in to my therapist.

later,
Aussie

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