Daily Archive for December 29th, 2007

Cookie Monster

Published on December 29, 2007 in Dreams and For the Record. 9 Comments

Big Blue BoyI’ve been craving cookies for days now, well, cookies and biscuits w/ sausage gravy…not together though. This afternoon I had a dream that Cookie Monster was at Over Eaters Anonymous. He said he’s blue and eats to cover the pain. He said he hides behind his weight. I woke up laughing. I’d say this is a big improvement from my usual dreams. I hope Cookie Monster gets the help he needs. In the mean time I have oatmeal cookies in the oven waiting to help my cravings.

Gotta run.
Austin

Photo Flashes

Published on December 29, 2007 in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, PTSD and Therapy. 3 Comments

Part of me would like to lay low today and do nothing at all. Therapy yesterday was kinda brutal. I took in the same photos that I let Dr. T see awhile back. Dr. D, my current therapist, saw exactly what I saw with very little prompting. One of the main themes in those pictures that I missed was how the pictures of the children do not include adults until the older years. We aren’t touching each other much and are spaced apart almost perfectly. The faces of the children show stress that increases with age. That I noticed but I hadn’t seen the fact the young children are pictured alone. Not until we hit our teen years are children seen in the same photos as adults. Most of the pictures of my cousins, my sister and myself are staged. We are being photographed but we are certainly not participating or want to be photographed. In the photos of me around age 10 and up I’m no longer looking dead into the camera. My sister looks into the camera from her early years to the oldest picture I have of her which is her senior year in high school.

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