We talked about being single again and how I’m doing with that. I told him I enjoy having my house to myself again. I enjoy having my space back, listening to music, watching TV shows I actually want to watch and pretty much doing things as I please. I mentioned that the only need that goes unmet are physical needs. Most of the time I can handle it, other times I’m looking at anything in a skirt. So far so good, no one night stands are anything crazy like that. We talked about how the woman is still the same ol’ Blossom. Nothing has changed for the good or the bad, she’s still Blossom. Still dependent, still easily swayed, still high on my list of people I’m better off not hanging with. We talked about transference issues with Blossom. At one point I called her my mother instead of my ex gf. Yikes!
We talked briefly about other relationships. He still finds it odd that I’ve never been broken up with before. He asked what I think it would be like to have someone break up with me that I was in love with. Crushed, rejected, worthless. I think it would be completely devastating if I never saw it coming.
I’m tired. I’m not so sure I’m thinking very clearly. I need a nap. Depending on how intense TV shows are tonight will determine if I turn the set on or not. I could toss in a DVD or something.
Goals for today: Clean the litter box, sweep the floor
Completed goals: I did my hygiene stuff. I ate spaghetti, sweet Italian sausage on the side w/ a 3 pepper mix and garlic bread, played ball with Captain Crunch
I have to go take a nap. I’m tired. I can hardly keep my eyes open.
Relationships-
Monday, December 31, 2007-5:01PM EST
I am tired too. Just scanned – couldn’t read this post yet, but will. Wishing you a good new year, and whatever you wish for or need from relationships. Have a good night.
I think relationships are hard. Living with them or without them, they’re still hard for me.
Hope you have a happy new year.