Daily Archive for January 23rd, 2008

This Isn’t About You

Published on January 23, 2008 in Mental Health, PTSD, Soapbox and Stupid People. 11 Comments

When I call you I hope you’re up to what I have to say. When I pick up the phone you better be ready to take on any anger I spill forth. It may have nothing to do with you or anyone you ever knew but you’ll feel it. For a few seconds I won’t consider where you are in your life or how you’ll feel about my words. I just plan to lay it all out, get all this pent up anger off my chest. I don’t care if you’re ready, I don’t care if you can take it. I want what I want. I want to scream. Continue reading ‘This Isn’t About You’

The Rescuers Light

Published on January 23, 2008 in Abuse, Borderline Personality Disorder, Mental Health, Poetry and PTSD. 5 Comments

Here in your light
Where you took me from her
You swear her grasp will mean nothing, but
I find no grounds for this claim on hope
When day has failed to break the night or
Immobilize its forces and stall its return.

I find no refuge from past days in silenced light.
No quiet, only voices that haunt.
No streams rushing in with waves of peace.
Only wreckage from ships long lost.

Each wave crashes one against the other,
Insistent that it find me first.
Impatient with thirst for assault
Always unsatisfied with the results.
Like a tidal wave is comes
Bringing stones who befriend stones with spiny little things
To compete for title “Champion Who Taunts Thy Soul”.

Hard, fast, angry and hungry,
It never seems to tire.
Surely you will tire, dry up and disappear.
Never will that happen when lakes find their path to rivers
And rivers to the mouth of an unquenchable sea.

Knight in Shining Armor you declared, “The light is on.”
In your victory ride you flaunted the flag of conquest
Having never prepared for the biggest war of all,
Stop the tide,
Calm the sea and
Rescue me from me.

The Rescuers Light (she may be gone but I’m still covered in darkness)
Tuesday, January 22, 2008-10:45PM EST

Not Dinner As Usual

Published on January 23, 2008 in For the Record and Soapbox. 1 Comment

They say the year 2007 is the year of the re-call. Dole started us off and Mattel ended it for us. Right in the middle was the whole fiasco where Menu Foods knowingly put our pets in danger and Wal-Mart with prior knowledge of the tainted food put Special Kitty on sale. We won’t even go into the flip flops that caused chemical burns or the numerous other immoral business practices they’ve taken on as policy. Nope, let’s not think about that. Let’s think about what might have come from these everyday threats. Prayer. I bet you anything 2007 can be said to be the year of The Recall Prayer. Continue reading ‘Not Dinner As Usual’