The People Behind My Eyes

Five years ago I would have emphatically given a negative response to the question, “Are you an angry person?” but over time that answer has changed.

Four years ago- “Well, I mean you know, I feel anger like anyone else I suppose.”
Three years ago- “I might feel a little more anger than one might accept as normal.”
Two years- “I have anger issues.”
One year- “I feel a lot of anger.”
This year, last month, this month, this week, yesterday, today -
“I’m pissed. My sarcasm shows it, the pressure behind my eyes show it, the tightly bound muscles in my neck, my back and my shoulders reflect the anger and anxiety I feel. The answer to the question is a definite “Yes, I’m angry.”

What do I plan to do about that? Do I plan to change it? Not right now, no. For the first time in a very long time I can say I’m angry and not have to justify it. I can express it in better ways than I have but I CAN express it. I don’t have to accept the belief that I can be angry as long as I hide it. I’m angry. There it is, I’m angry.

How Angry Am I?
Thursday, January 24, 2008-2:52PM EST