The People Behind My Eyes

Significant pieces, recurrent themes: The 2nd and 4th grade were some of the worst years of my life. The children falling off their bikes was like how my sister just fell off hers and broke her wrist. A buffet style restaurant shows up in my dreams often. I usually opt to go to the dollar store next door instead. Dreaming in a different language is common.

Of interest: Not many of my dreams are at night. The family friend I haven’t thought about in years but she was the person that hosted many of the talent shows the mother, sister and I were in. She herself is a survivor having killed an intruder who assaulted her. She was a sad woman, not overly emotional, quiet like in the dream. She lived in the same apartment complex we lived in while in the 2nd grade.

Commentary: What struck me about this dream is the flow of children directly into traffic. They didn’t even attempt to move or protect themselves from harm. They clumsily fell from their bicycles, clumsy like how my sister was. The van ran over the child’s hand. When my sister fell from her bike by the street when I was in the 10th grade she broke her wrist. It is interesting to me that in the dream she attempted to mediate but was ineffective at it. It also seemed as if she was trying to trick me into thinking she would communicate so I could understand her but then she never signed nor did she speak so I could hear her. I have a feeling the entire dream is about the sisters inability to protect herself or get out of the way of danger. I think it was also about how hard it is for me to process out memories of her and experiences I had with her. I think being distracted by false hand movements and a soft voice kept me from using a skill I had. I got distracted and didn’t read her lips. That’s natural for me to do. So I’m wondering if in real life I’m too distracted by the details and emotion to see a key piece of who this woman child I call my sister really is?

Oh I so look forward to sleeping tonight. It’s like turning the wheel of misfortune and winning a nightmare every time.

Dream Therapy: Commentary on Woman Child
Friday, February 29, 2008, 11:35 pm