Daily Archive for March 6th, 2008

Murder – Suicide: Domestic Violence

You shouldn’t have to die to be safe……

Several days ago a man called 911 to report a murder-suicide. The police showed up to find that he had killed his wife, his 14 year old child and finally himself. The police said this is the second time in 2 months that the city has dealt with the murder of a child. Several months before two mothers and their babies were shot and killed by intruders. When I say babies I do mean babies. One child was just shy of 2 years old, the second baby was 4 months old. They both were shot in their mother’s arms. That case had nothing to do with domestic violence but it did have to do with children dying. It’s rather disturbing to say the least.

I went to visit one of my neighbors today whom I haven’t seen in months. When she answered the door she looked pretty good. She looked healthy but physically tired. She was making cheesecakes for work as she told me about being held at knife point by her husband only days ago. She’d come home from work to find the house empty, which she found strange. Her husband was sitting in the living room furious. He accused her of cheating on him and told her he was going to kill her. Evidently a friend stopped by before my neighbor got home and found her husband sitting in the living room with a gun. He said he was tired of his wife cheating and was going to kill her that evening. He sat there with his daughter in the living room, holding the gun, telling the neighbor he was going to kill his wife that evening. The neighbor talked him down, took the gun and the teenage girl and left. That’s when my neighbor got home and the knife incident happened. She said the knife was huge, one she hadn’t seen before, something along the lines of a gutting knife.

I put a tad bit of distance between myself and her, crossed my arms and continued to listen. My body language said, “I’m threatened” but emotionally I was frustrated, angry and felt helpless. Continue reading ‘Murder – Suicide: Domestic Violence’

JAGA Update

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I talked to JAGA. She’s getting along, trying to get settled in. Right now she can’t find the cords to her PC so she’s offline until she finds them. While offline I figured I’d spread some rumors about her. When she returns I’ll promptly remove this entry. I don’t want her to know I was talking behind her back. I have to seem like an upright person ya know?

First off, after doing a little investigative work I found out that JAGA is at the top of the list for wanted burglars in the world? Yeah, she has a sorted past of taking candy from babies. Babies! She’s been all around the world snatching lollypops. France, England, Ethiopia, Switzerland and of all places the North Pole. Taking candy from hard working elf’s is wrong but who am I to judge I’m talking behind someone’s back. Anyhooo, on the Interpol website she’s known as the Lollypop Bandit. I was shocked!!!! But it gets worse. It appears that a toddler put up a struggle for his little green sucker and JAGA actually kicked the little girl’s puppy. The puppy is doing fine now but will suffer puppy PTSD for the rest of his little life. Continue reading ‘JAGA Update’

This is Where I Am

I was fine when I left therapy yesterday but I think it’s hitting me now.

I was in bed this morning laying on my side and I thought to myself, “The best part of waking up really is Folgers in my cup.” Damn!

I’m less depressed than I was but still somewhat depressed. I’m also avoidant. I haven’t opened my email in a good 3 days. I seem to just not want to go there.

I had a few nights where I got a break from the nightmares about my sister. As a matter of fact the other night I got 12 hours of uninterrupted nightmare free sleep. Twelve is what it takes for me to function during the day. I haven’t had 12 in ages.

Still doing the counting thing. Still doing the rocking thing but at least I’m eating now. I wasn’t eating much. I’ve lost 16 pounds which isn’t a good thing right now. Continue reading ‘This is Where I Am’