Daily Archive for April 18th, 2008

Earthquake

Published on April 18, 2008 in For the Record and Pets. 2 Comments

Yup, Indiana felt the earthquake but everybody here’s okay.

Somewhere In Here Is Me

Published on April 18, 2008 in Depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health and PTSD. 2 Comments

Food does not make this better. Cigarettes don’t help, music touches and I don’t want to be touched. Painting helps little but I can’t focus enough to finish anything. All I want to do is go to sleep. I’m pissed, just majorly pissed and I can’t even bring myself to cry.

There is a joyful me, one who was thrilled to death about having a fantastic sales week, 56 pieces in all. I wonder how she keeps herself separated from the rest of us who care about that but are overshadowed by anguish. It’s not that I don’t care. I like the fact that people want our art in their home. It’s just that right now I am pissed and tired and frustrated and running around like a chicken with my head cut off looking for soul food, something to cut the pain. It’s just not happening though. Nothing helps.

I feel lost right now and I need to find my way back.