As for those many times when i have nothing to say &/or can’t fill in the blanks? For years, they scared me when i had no clue what/why so much pressure was being felt behind my “closed doors” — i.e., in my body, mind, etc. After making a decision to walk on this road into Healing, I found myself wondering…finally accepting…& then being grateful that at least in those moments in which I was shut down “up here” on earth…that down under some cool serious stuff was still happening 24/7 inside my “inner earth”…..whether I was awake or asleep, the Power of Love flows. Although when I am awake and closed off, I often find myself doing what i began doing in 2003 with a dear friend who was dying of a brain tumor. We would find ourselves quiet…simply present with our PALMS UP — literally and figuratively…..emotionally, physically, spiritually choosing for ourselves & our HEARTS to be OPEN — even though it didn’t always look or feel that way. This communicated so much between us — esp. sweet as her health & ability to talk declined. We would encourage each other with/through our “PALMS UP!” I look back now and am struck that this little hand movement wasn’t so much about opening my hands in order to receive something….but more about just being willing. that’s all. and that was enough in those “spaces”…still can be.
Sometimes just to unfurl my fingers is all I CAN do in those moments…those Sacred Spaces in Time. And sometimes I can’t even do that physically or emotionally…and that’s okay. (And yes, i WILL keep telling myself out loud “that’s okay” for as long as there is something inside me needing/thirsting to hear those conforting, compassionate, loving words.)

take care of yourself.