Daily Archive for June 23rd, 2008

Sick At Heart

Published on June 23, 2008 in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Dreams, Morton's Pride, PTSD and Therapy. 3 Comments

I have that sick at heart feeling that I’d truly like to get rid of.

We talked about doing relaxation stuff before we start therapy but we kinda freaked about it. We’re supposed to listen to his voice and be okay with that. Lord no, I don’t think so. Then Amy worried he’d want us to go to sleep or something. We talked about Blossom for a bit and how the little one’s really don’t like the girl. Then he said something that we seem to feel powerless to keep her away from us. Insert Robert who doesn’t like to feel powerless. From there our original (the host) popped out for a few minutes having no clue what the hell was going on. She apologized for our mother being so cruel to us and making it so difficult to treat us in therapy. She said she didn’t want to be put to sleep either. I think she actually stayed for the rest of the session. That may be the first or second time she’s been in his office. She’s been around a bit here and there lately. Continue reading ‘Sick At Heart’

More Than A Label

Published on June 23, 2008 in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, Morton's Pride, PTSD and Relationships. 2 Comments

Destiny is not happy with her name anymore. She worries it’s come to be known as a trouble making out of control alter. She wants a new name. She’s only been called Destiny for maybe 4 or 5 yrs now. Before that she went by Julie or Julia. I can’t remember now. I don’t know it’s so much of a name change she wants so much as a different way of being seen. She doesn’t want to be a joke or thought of as “the sexual one” and stuff like that. I’m afraid we’ve done to her what was done to me for so long. We seem to stick labels on each other even when those labels hurt. Continue reading ‘More Than A Label’

Bi Polar and Borderline Sympathies

Published on June 23, 2008 in Borderline Personality Disorder, Mental Health and Relationships. 1 Comment

At 11PM the phone rang. I nearly got through the entire week end with no Blossom incidents. This one was easy though. She called wondering if a question I asked about her therapist was asked with the intent of making fun of her, of Blossom. I asked if her therapist had her baby yet. Blossom thought I should have known she had the baby 5 weeks ago. I said I didn’t remember her telling me. I guess that short conversation was taken as me making fun for a supposed memory problem Blossom has. I truly didn’t remember her telling me her therapist had the baby. I started wondering what else I’ve said innocently that was taken the wrong way or seen as me poking fun at her. “Did your therapist have the baby yet?” Somehow that question totally took off in the wrong direction, a direction I didn’t know it took until the next day when she called crying saying she’d been in “despair” all day. Continue reading ‘Bi Polar and Borderline Sympathies’