Daily Archive for July 10th, 2008

White Van

Published on July 10, 2008 in Humor. 6 Comments Tags: .

Dear Sirs in the white van,

I’m sorry I acted ugly at the grocery store today. When you pulled up behind me and stopped I panicked and spilled profanities. This isn’t because I don’t like people that drive your type of vehicle, it’s because I’ve seen stuff like this on Dateline. I’m not sure what your intentions were but the look on your faces was priceless. You seem to wonder how a short, chubby chick such as myself could muster that kind of attitude in a split second. As the first man exited the van to get into his parked truck he had a good sense of humor about the ordeal. I still wonder if his narrowly missing my car while backing out was payback for me saying how much I’m sick of people bothering me and how the crime rate is ridiculous and criminals should be shot while hanging from the nearest tree. I apologize deeply for insulting your manhood. I’m just happy I decided to leave your mother out of it. What we three learned about this is that you can never really be sure what another person is going to do AND you can’t expect to pull up behind someone in a white van (which is often used in homicidal crime sprees) without getting cussed the effe out.

Again, I apologize from the bottom of my heart,

Sincerely,
Citizen Insane

The Doc and Robert (INSiDE)

Published on July 10, 2008 in Borderline Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Morton's Pride, PTSD and Therapy. 4 Comments Tags: .

That’s that smirk I’m talking about that I see on your face from time to time. Then we realize it’s a nervous habit not a way to be mean or cruel. Maybe when we give details about the abuse, especially the physical torture maybe he’s getting off on it. The doctor enjoys stories of abuse. This is our mother talking, this is something the mother said happens with therapists, that they listen to details and get off on it. What a way to destroy trust, even those who we go to for help we can’t trust because they’re secretly there for their own sick gain.

Can I have my mind back? Can I have some quiet?

We didn’t trust his reasons for calling us back. There’s strong paranoia with him that he just wants to keep us as a client so he can hear us tell him these things. Why else would he call us back? He doesn’t care. We’re just his source for torture details. He’s probably at home jacking off to this shit.

There is a video that we ran into over at the blog by Battle Weary. The video is a very good depiction of the chaos that can go on inside the mind of someone with multiple personality disorder. While it does not portray all people with DID it does give a good picture of my system. It gives a good picture of the activity level, the noise level and the preparation taken to deal with the outside world. Continue reading ‘The Doc and Robert (INSiDE)’