I am: just the girl next door
I think: I have too much time on my hands
I have: no mercy for myself.
I wish: today never happened.
I hate: and love sunflowers.
I miss: my sister
I fear: falling deeper into depression
I hear: life gets better
I smell: blood and urine, all the time
I crave: silence
I search: for a reason to get up each morning
I wonder: why I keep doing this.
I regret: having wasted so much time toiling
I love: and hate art
I ache: in my heart and in my bones
I am not: good (please do not respond to this part cause I don’t want to hear it.)
I believe: that I’m crazy
I dance: in the living room with candles
I sing: I don’t sing
I cry: but only when I feel like I’m out of options
I fight: tooth and nail to stay awake so I don’t dream
I win:
I lose:
I never: asked the question, “Who am I”
I always: Have coffee after dinner
I confuse: the feeling of soft with the feeling of wet
I listen: to music to drown out the people in my head
I am scared: all the time
I need: to be held and to matter
I am happy about: having a blog and blog friends but it doesn’t feel like enough to keep me going.
I imagine: being inside the painting Ladybird.
copied from Clinically Clueless .
J of A
I’m glad that you did this and the only comment that I NEED to make is that you have not destroyed your relationship with God. You know I would love to talk to you about this one.
take care,
Clueless
This is a very powerful meme. I can imagine how difficult it was to do.