Daily Archive for August 17th, 2008

Dreams, Food and People

Published on August 17, 2008 in Depression, Dreams, Mental Health and Relationships. 2 Comments

The other night I had a dream I was talking to lady who felt she had no right to live. I told her that she had every right to be here and that there was nothing she could reveal to me about her abusive past that would make me think differently. I told her over and over again, “You have a right to be here as much as anyone else.” I woke up more tired than when I laid down.

Last night I had a dream that I woke up and my apartment was filled with brand new oil paints. Someone purchased all the oils from Hobby Lobby and placed them in my apartment. When I woke I was thrilled but leery. Why would someone give me this gift? I woke more tired than when I laid down. Continue reading ‘Dreams, Food and People’

Little Bits – Creations of Beauty

Published on August 17, 2008 in For the Record and Gratitude Journal. 1 Comment Tags: .

A good friend of mine put her creations out on in the world awhile ago but has only recently begun to advertise them. Her step towards making Little Bits grow brought me back to when I first started offering my artwork for sale and all the ups and downs I had with taking that huge step. Perhaps Beauty already knows her work is just like her name but I’d still like to briefly share my experience of being scared to death to put my stuff out into the world.

When I took that step it was with much trepidation. At the time I got a really nice boost of confidence from a woman who runs a non-for-profit organization. The talks we had and her patients for my fears helped me go from simply displaying my art to taking the huge risk of offering it for sale.  After I took the risk I was scared to death I’d made a mistake. I figured I was making a great fool of myself because I personally saw no real value in it. I wondered if someone would see what I called mistakes and count me and the art itself as worthless. I wondered if someone would write and say, “This is crap, I want my money back.” All of these things crossed my mind and occasionally they still do.  Continue reading ‘Little Bits – Creations of Beauty’