Comments on: Faceless Yet Significant

By: Lynn

Lynn — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 08:22:33 +0000

One more little thing. I guess I’m not everyone in the dream. I am not the husbands in the last paragraph.

By: Lynn

Lynn — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 08:18:42 +0000

And I am also the house in that dream. I dream about myself as a building quite often.

By: Lynn

Lynn — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 08:15:11 +0000

Okay. I thought about it, and I went ahead and posted both of those things anyway. They are disturbing to me, especially the dream, but not posting it won’t make it less disturbing. FYI for the dream – Everyone in the dream, except for the therapist, is me. To bottom line the thing — he used to be my ‘mother’, but not anymore. My mother is a bitch and my therapist screwed up and did something that reminded me of her. Even during that, my ‘inner child’ clung to him because he saved us and was nice to us when the flashbacks came. I don’t see him as my mother anymore. Jenny (also me) took his place. She’s gone right now. I still don’t want any mother. Fine by me, but the dream says he has my kids (me). And now he tells me he’s going on vacation for three weeks in October. Fabulous.

By: Lynn

Lynn — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 06:55:54 +0000

OMG, Austin! I so get this! I talk to mine on the phone, but when I saw him in person it was extremely upsetting in some ways. I had a hard time even looking at him and I felt like I could just suddenly jump up and run away. You know why? Because he had a body. Ew. That made him too real. A person, like you say, and people have not been good to me. Still, his vacations eat my heart out. I get scared, you know? Last time I had to keep his photo while he was gone. I had a weird dream about my therapist yesterday. I always dream that he is someone else other than himself. I bet if I read this post a few times when my mind is fully ‘on’, I might figure out why that is. Maybe it is just that I don’t want him to be the therapist. Therapists have historically been bad news, too. I wrote him an email about that a while back. I think I’m going to post the dream. Maybe I should post the email, too. There is a paragraph near the end that I think you could relate to.

By: Sid

Sid — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 06:05:32 +0000

This post hit a nerve with me. I think I understand what you mean by not wanting to think of your therapist as real. I always thought I refused eye contact so they couldn’t see the demon inside of me, but after reading your post, I think maybe it’s so I can’t see the human in them. My current therapist is faceless to me. I couldn’t tell you what she looks like other than I know she’s shorter than me with brown hair. So far she hasn’t mentioned anything about the lack of eye contact that previous therapists seemed too overly concerned with. I hope she continues to remain quiet about it.