Comments on: This Is My Heart and Soul http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2008/09/30/therapy-newpdoc/ Sundrip Journals Thu, 08 Jan 2009 18:58:39 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.6.5 By: Heather http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2008/09/30/therapy-newpdoc/#comment-4680 Heather Wed, 01 Oct 2008 11:22:59 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/?p=2543#comment-4680 I too am proud of you!!! When I was seeking help, many moons back, I found a doctor that would work for the bargin price of 5.00 a visit, not bad. I started trusting her, all though she really was not all that helpful in solving my "issues" it was comforting to have a place and person to just listen to me talk it out, all of the we of me got to talk it out. After two years of talking and working on myself to become a united personality by force of will...I went in one day to find out it was to be my last visit, she was ending our relationship. She then infomed me that after talking with me and taking her notes...she had completed a novel...based on my story. She said she changed the names, and she herself was writting under a pen name that she didn't want to tell me...she had finally found a publisher so she no longer "needed" to work with me. I didn't know at the time that 6 months into our work, that she had stopped seeing all her other c,ients and was seeing just me. She thought I would be pleased that my story was going to be out there and maybe even help others. I felt as though I had been raped all over again. I have been back to therapy again through the years, but I just have never been able to trust them, so I finally gave up and fixed myself...by becoming who I was meant to be...a spritual, magical artist. 10 years later, I am internally united under one "flag". I understand your words and feelings around this issue so very well. And that's why I am so very proud of you for not being a victim again. What a powerful human you are, only good things can come from that trait. With a whole heart, Heather I too am proud of you!!! When I was seeking help, many moons back, I found a doctor that would work for the bargin price of 5.00 a visit, not bad. I started trusting her, all though she really was not all that helpful in solving my “issues” it was comforting to have a place and person to just listen to me talk it out, all of the we of me got to talk it out. After two years of talking and working on myself to become a united personality by force of will…I went in one day to find out it was to be my last visit, she was ending our relationship. She then infomed me that after talking with me and taking her notes…she had completed a novel…based on my story. She said she changed the names, and she herself was writting under a pen name that she didn’t want to tell me…she had finally found a publisher so she no longer “needed” to work with me. I didn’t know at the time that 6 months into our work, that she had stopped seeing all her other c,ients and was seeing just me. She thought I would be pleased that my story was going to be out there and maybe even help others. I felt as though I had been raped all over again. I have been back to therapy again through the years, but I just have never been able to trust them, so I finally gave up and fixed myself…by becoming who I was meant to be…a spritual, magical artist. 10 years later, I am internally united under one “flag”. I understand your words and feelings around this issue so very well. And that’s why I am so very proud of you for not being a victim again. What a powerful human you are, only good things can come from that trait.
With a whole heart,
Heather

]]> By: Lynn http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2008/09/30/therapy-newpdoc/#comment-4679 Lynn Wed, 01 Oct 2008 07:48:45 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/?p=2543#comment-4679 But this DOES warrant a passionate response. It is your heart and soul and that is precious. Other artists will understand you on this. I pictured myself in your shoes and wondered how I would feel if I had been asked to write a short story for payment, or to pay with my photographs... I think I would have been rendered speechless. Though I imagine she probably thought she was coming up with a way of helping. After reading this post, I now understand why I got downright snippy when my therapist raised his fees last year. It was because I felt like he was doing it to punish me or get rid of me, but there is more. I TOTALLY understand what you mean about the past interfering with financial security, and it's bad enough to have to pay money because of what someone else did, but then to pay MORE money at a time when I couldn't even work... and then being afraid of looking like an ingrate or a cheapskate if I complained, it was all very confusing. You made me laugh, though, with this... “Um, how long have you been gay?” I laughed and said, “About as long as I’ve been black.” -- GOOD ONE, Austin!! Love it! I got this zinger in -- He: You're very quiet today. Me: How do you feel about that? Sometimes shrinks just irritate me. But this DOES warrant a passionate response. It is your heart and soul and that is precious. Other artists will understand you on this. I pictured myself in your shoes and wondered how I would feel if I had been asked to write a short story for payment, or to pay with my photographs… I think I would have been rendered speechless. Though I imagine she probably thought she was coming up with a way of helping.

After reading this post, I now understand why I got downright snippy when my therapist raised his fees last year. It was because I felt like he was doing it to punish me or get rid of me, but there is more. I TOTALLY understand what you mean about the past interfering with financial security, and it’s bad enough to have to pay money because of what someone else did, but then to pay MORE money at a time when I couldn’t even work… and then being afraid of looking like an ingrate or a cheapskate if I complained, it was all very confusing.

You made me laugh, though, with this…
“Um, how long have you been gay?” I laughed and said, “About as long as I’ve been black.” — GOOD ONE, Austin!! Love it!

I got this zinger in –
He: You’re very quiet today.
Me: How do you feel about that?

Sometimes shrinks just irritate me.

]]> By: Immi http://www.sundrip.com/journal/2008/09/30/therapy-newpdoc/#comment-4674 Immi Tue, 30 Sep 2008 21:04:05 +0000 http://www.sundrip.com/journal/?p=2543#comment-4674 Good for you! There's no reason you should pay when the secretary is the one who screwed up. Good for you! There’s no reason you should pay when the secretary is the one who screwed up.

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