The People Behind My Eyes

Dream Two

This dream is from this morning. I was riding in the backseat of a car trying to convince some Islamic people not to hang a man who had shown disrespect to their people. He too was Islamic but he was disrespectful and was going to be hanged. I reached over to hand a man something, I don’t remember what it was, and my hand accidentally touched his. He was furious and felt disrespected. He said I too would be hanged. I lowered my eyes and asked him for forgiveness and explained that I didn’t intend to touch a married man and I had no intentions of being disrespectful. He didn’t care. He told the driver to hurry up because they were going to hang me too. At this point I looked up at him and said, “What ever happened to forgiveness? Don’t you forgive?” I asked if he had a Messiah or if there was some kind of belief they held that would cover this sin against him. I don’t remember if he answered or not. We pulled up to the site where a man had already been put to death. The two of us were forced out of the vehicle. The driver turned the radio off which had been playing the song “Bruised But Not Broken” by Joss Stone.

“Been alot that I’ve been through
I cried a tear a time or two
Baby, you know I cried some over you, yeah
Had my heart kicked to the ground
Love ripped me up and tore me down, baby
But that ain’t enough to break
‘Cause I’ll rise above it
And I’ll pick myself up
And I’ll dust the pain off of my heart

And I’ll be alright
And I’ll love again
And the wounds will mend
I’m bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I’ll get back my feet
It’s not the end of me
My heart is still open
I’m bruised but not broken….”

The first man was hanged then it was my turn. My trusty dog licked my face and I woke up.

COMMENTARY:

I doubt seriously this dream was about the religion of Islam but more about the nature of my mother who was unforgiving for even the slightest mistake. I have a feeling the reason the persons in the dream were Muslim is because of the debates on TV right now and how much they’re talking about terrorism. The other Muslim angel may be that a very long time ago I found the religion interesting. I thought the women I met here in the US were strong but balanced with humility and honor. I really liked what I saw and considered studying it. It is also noteworthy that I cover my head quite a bit which would have been no major change for me had I converted.

The main part of this dream had to do with extreme punishment for minor transgressions despite a direct request to be excused or forgiven. This tells me the person in the dream who took me to my death was in fact my mother. The other day in therapy we discussed being beaten for throwing rocks as a child. We’ve also discussed other extreme punishments for normal childhood misbehaviors.

RECURRENT DREAM THEME:

Riding in a car with strangers to aide another person to safety, threat of death, being in harms way

FEELINGS UPON WAKING:

Tearful, depressed, angry

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