I usually complain about money around the beginning of the month but you know what? I feel good right now. The thing is this, I like when everything is paid and there’s a zero balance on everything. My car was paid off yesterday. Heck yeah! The overall cost was mega low but it still took a bit to pay it off while paying insurance, $4.99 a gallon, rent and phone and all the other stuff I pay. That small payment hurt but it’s paid off and all my other obligations are covered to a zero balance. I don’t like an empty wallot but I do like the feeling of pride for meeting my obligations.
The fur babies have what they need for a month. I have medication and personal items plus a very tiny cushion for emergancies. Can a person really be happy like this? Yes, especially when they know they were told they’d never, ever make it on their own.
My income level has dropped significantly since I stopped cooking professionally. My lifestyle is very different. Tight isn’t really how I’d describe it. Ten years ago I averaged 80 grand a year. I now bring in about 7 grand. Life is majorly different. I doubt calling myself destitute is an exaggeration. But even in this state, when I’ve covered everything, when my pockets are empty, there is still a feeling of pride. I cannot lose that feeling of pride because once I do my feet stop. Maybe it’s strange but it feels good to know when it comes to bills and food I can sit back and rest for this month.
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