Comments on: Broke But Happy

By: cerebralmum

cerebralmum — Sun, 05 Oct 2008 00:44:25 +0000

That’s brilliant, Austin. You certainly deserve to feel happy and proud of yourself.

By: Enola

Enola — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 21:39:41 +0000

YEAH on the car. We have 2 more pymts on ours. We are doing the Total Money Makeover and hope to be out of debt soon.

I didn’t know you cooked professionally - how cool!

By: Austin

Austin — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 18:05:04 +0000

Thank you everyone….
the whole idea of not being able to make it and being proud that I do comes from my need to prove that I can stand on my own two feet without crawling back to my mother.
The whole “you can’t do this on your own” thing is an old message/tape in my head. “You’ll never make it without me, blah, blah, blah…You can’t live without me. I’m the only one you can depend upon and trust, blah, fucking blah, blah, blah.”
It really was beaten into my head that I’d never survive without her. But hey, I can. I do. I will.

I think what she meant was, “You’ll never survive with me.” Now that there is a true statement if I’ve ever heard one.

Austin