Daily Archive for October 14th, 2008

Letters Home: A Personal Savior

Published on October 14, 2008 in Abuse, Borderline Personality Disorder, Letters Home and PTSD. 0 Comments

Monday my doctor asked me if you ever gave me anything out of love. Love? There was fire in my eyes when he used that word. I have not once felt loved by another human being, especially not by you. I remember feeling like I destroyed your life. I remember feeling like a burden to you. I remember asking you how it felt to have a handicapped child. I also remember the look in your eye and that you offered no answer at all. Perhaps you knew most of what I experienced you put in my head. I don’t know. I felt like such a burden. I apologized for it so many times, not out loud but in my heart. I’m so sorry. I am so sorry. My heart was heavy with guilt and I didn’t even know what I was doing to make things so difficult. I racked my brain, I swear I did but I never came up with one single answer all I knew was I destroyed your life. I also knew I was responsible for keeping what was left of you alive.

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Three Dream Heads

Published on October 14, 2008 in Art Therapy, Dissociative Identity Disorder and PTSD. 0 Comments

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PTSD

J of A

Idols

Published on October 14, 2008 in Abuse, Art Therapy, Emotions, Fear, PTSD and Secrets and Confessions. 0 Comments

One day I’ll repent of sins I did not commit.
One day I’ll be purified, refined, cleansed.