Shower, Powder, Hair, Nails

The other day as I sat … well, it’s not really important what I was doing… anyway, I thought to myself, “It would be nice to go to therapy in this instead of getting dressed.” I had on a baggy pair of dark blue sweatpants, a gray T-shirt and a pair of running shoes. I wanted to show up to therapy in that but I couldn’t let myself do it. I’m a bit too trained to leave the house without putting on a “real clothes.” I can pamper myself, give myself a break from time to time and even buy myself small gifts but when it comes to certain things I still hold on to old ideas.

I was raised to “dress right” which means when I walk out of the house I’ll be showered, have on pants (not sweats) and a nice shirt. If the shirt  has long sleeves I put on a T-shirt under it. It doesn’t matter if it’s screaming hot outside, I’ll put a T-shirt on under a long sleeve shirt. That’s how I was taught to do it. I feel like a bum when I don’t. I hate that I can’t relax enough to let go, not even when I go to Village Pantry or Wal-mart can I let go. Usually when I’m at home I’m dressed, save shoes. I hardly ever wear shoes around the house and rarely will you catch me in lounge clothes. When I was younger my family got up and got dressed. There was no such thing as play clothes (not that we played that much anyway) and there was no such thing as jeans or sweatpants. As a matter of fact I didn’t have my first pair of jeans until I was in foster care in high school.We were only allowed to wear pants twice a week. The rest of the time we wore a dress or skirt.

In the title I mentioned doing my nails. That’s just for the title. I don’t have any nails. I chew ‘em.  What of powder? I actually use matching powder with my perfume. It’s easy to make but too expensive to buy. Since Princess Fife has a shopping problem she has to make room for new purchases so she dumps stuff over here for me. That means I get to wear Victoria’s Secret perfumes and sprays. Heck yeah!!! I’m currently using Shimmering Autumn Romance. I smell so pretty.

Anyway, here it is 3AM and I have to be up in a few hours to go back to therapy. I’m trying to figure out what outfit I’ll wear or if I need to do laundry. It’s annoying. I’d really like to go in sweats. Appearances, always everything for appearance sake. Here’s one appearance I won’t ever make. I guess there’s a new style out where adults and children wear their PJ bottoms in public. I’m not sure what that’s about. No one needs to see me in my red plaid Joe Boxers.  Yes, red plaid. They’re so loud it’s a wonder they don’t keep me awake.  Wearing these bad boys in public is never gonna happen people, never gonna happen. However, I’ve always wanted a pair of red pajamas like Pa use to wear on Little House In the Prairie…… not to wear in public though.

Austin

Shower, Powder, Hair, Nails – Tuesday, December 23, 2008 – 2:50AM EST