I know this blog can get intense from time to time. There’s no telling what’s going to show up. I worry sometimes about how intense my entries get and if I will turn people off this way but I have to know there is somewhere I am not required to watch my every word. So, when you come here please be in the right frame of mind and know the subject may be light or heavy from one minute to the next. That’s the best I can do for a trigger warning.
You’re going to see religious entries, you’re going to see anger and humor, daily grind and even hope. You’re going to see it all cause I feel it all. Sometimes it looks like I’m all over the map. I’m laughing one minute, crying the next, intellectualizing then strong. I’m everywhere and I know it. I suppose I’m saying this more for myself than my readers. I guess I worry that when things get this intense (dream entries and stories) then I’m going to turn people away. But I need to be able to be as open and honest as I can be without fear. I do that here on my blog. So I guess I need to let people know the ride here isn’t a smooth one. Please don’t ever expect that.Tags – if a person needs to know what they’re getting into before they read they can look at the tags on the entry. I try to tag well so that I can find an entry if need be. My therapist doesn’t read my blog so sometimes I bring stuff in. Good tags help me find stuff but they can also be helpful as a trigger warning. Also, it might be a good idea to pay attention to the title too.
After I wrote the above I had to ask myself, why are you so worried about pushing people away with your intensity and why do you feel the need to warn others that your experiences might cause harm but you can’t put up flashing lights to warn against it? I know the answer to those questions but still I needed to write this so my head will stop swirling.
What I’m doing in therapy right now is rather intense as my dreams show. So this is where I am right now, in the guarded apologetic mode. What else can I say?
Austin
I know how you feel having some trepidation about being open on the blog. I deleted last night’s post because of that. Sometimes things get very hard. Sometimes I worry that my readers will think I’m crazier than a shit house rat. I understand.
I read. Every time you post, I read. I don’t comment much because, well, I’m not in the right frame of mind. But I read. And I admire your courage.
Austin,
There’s just nothing you could say here that would turn me away from you. Nothing.
I just want you to know that.
Love,
Wily
This blog is for you. Write it as you se it and as you need to. I love the fact that you can be so honest about your emotions and just tell it so plainly. Maybe I can learn from you!
This is YOUR blog, there is no need to censor yourself. Write what you need to write, what you want to write. If people can’t handle it, they can click that little X in the upper right hand corner…or they can choose not to come here at all. No one forces them to visit.
Thanks Austin, for continuing to share within and without self-censorship.