Long Day, Good Day, Bad Body

Yesterday was quite long. I went to therapy on about three hours of sleep which isn’t that unusual for me. After therapy I went to the park and sat by the creek. It was dead silent of people. The only thing I could hear was water, birds playing in the water and squirrels playing in the leaves. I sat there for a little bit then took a lengthy walk around the park. I visited Chi for a bit then H and B. I came home and took a short nap. That was pretty much my day. It felt long because I didn’t get a lot of sleep.

The night before (Sunday) a friend and I went on a short day trip. I did so knowing full well my body wasn’t up to it. I didn’t care though, I wanted to go. We actually drove past a house I lived in a long time ago as an adult. It didn’t bother me at all because that was one of my stronger times. Man it looked smaller than it did when I lived there. That little tiny town hasn’t grown much.

Body stuff: I’ve got a blood clot in my left leg under my knee and my left side is totally knotted up. My right leg doesn’t have a clot in it but it’s 2 inches larger than the left. When that doctor twisted me around like he did I knew I’d feel it for several days. I hope it lets up. I’m going in about the blood clot Tuesday afternoon. Yes, I know clots are dangerous so I didn’t put off letting the doctor know.

Because I deal with blood clots a lot I was given a heart filter back in 2003 which is when I had the pulmonary embolism. A blood clot went to my heart and lungs. Sheshhh, I shouldn’t have lived through that. The clots kept forming so they put in a filter. So, on top of everything else I carry a little card that lets medics know what kind of filter I have and all that jazz. I don’t want to think about it right now though. I just want to climb into bed, surround myself with pillows to soften the touch on tender points and hope to God I get some sleep. I doubt they’ll keep me but I may end up back on shots twice a day in my stomach. I never thought I’d be able to give myself a shot but it’s funny how we find the strength to do what we never thought we could when it’s absolutely necessary to do it. The girl tortured with needles in the roof of her mouth and in her feet can actually give herself  a shot in the stomach twice a day without blinking an eye. Whodathunk?

Austin