I hate mice. Last night at the restaurant there was a mouse. Freaked me out bad! I left, just got up and left. I panicked big time and wanted to walk home… the whole 2 miles there. Uh, huh like that was going to happen but try telling that to a 5 year old alter dead set on getting away from the building with a mouse in it. It was dark too and the way home isn’t lit every well so it could have been bad had she tried to walk home. We got her calmed down, my friend came out of the restaurant and we drove home. She stayed for a tad bit after we got here (majorly helpful) and then went home. Today I saw a mouse at home. I’m not a happy camper.
I’m angry about everything… not everything, mainly about this house and how it looks.
Every time I go into the kitchen I’m pissed because of how bad it is in there and in the dining room. I took a video of the house to bring in to Dr. D today. He was shocked and said the house is out of control. I told him I’m desperately trying to get a hold of a dorm fridge so that I can put it back here and not have to go out there as much. I have cooking stuff back here. I just need a dorm fridge or something small like that. I’ve been looking on Freecycle.org (I don’t do Craigslist) but so far nothing. I think I’m going to have to go with a new one which is going to hurt like hell financially. I’ve been looking around for a place. The plan is to move but it’s not going to happen that fast.
I’m worried about living alone again. I’m fearful of loneliness and I’m afraid of someone breaking in because they realize I live alone.
Fife has been gone for a full week. He won’t be back until Friday. At first I was worried about being here alone but I’ve rather enjoyed the quiet. I even walked out in the kitchen in a T-shirt and undies. Hell yeah!!! I felt so free. LOL It felt like I was getting away with something. I giggled the whole time.
Gus if fine. Bella is fine but I’m not. I have moments when I’m okay but mostly I’m not okay. I needed to close sales from my art site down until after July 4th because I’m not even up to filling orders right now. The vacation is posted on the art site. Between this filthy house being a bit time trigger there’s fireworks going off all the time. Anyone who has ever been shot or shot at knows fireworks can jack your head up. So I kinda have major crap going on right now. I’ve been wearing my headphones quite a bit to block the fireworks and that helps. At night I wear ear plugs, as usual, and that helps too. Right now is just kinda messed up from every angle.
My friend MeMe is home from her mother’s funeral. Of course there was major drama there. That girl has a heavier plate than I do. I have no idea how she manages things. I don’t get to talk to her much anymore since the house burned down. I miss her friendship. It feels now like we try to fit our friendship in between each new crisis. There’s always something major going on with her which separates us two. I think I’m feeling a little lonely for my friend. I can’t blame the woman I mean dang, two deaths, family issues, her house burned down and a some other stuff I’m not at liberty to report. The girl ain’t livin’ a happy life. I can’t blame her but I miss her, a lot.
I’m going to be 38 in August. It doesn’t even seem real. It’s also kind of scary to think I’m going to be 40 soon.
I have more doctor appointments than I ever want to go to in a one week span of time. More people in one week will see my ass than in my whole dang life. There’s only so much a person should show for so long. Enough is enough, let me keep my clothes on, please. I can see me at the store in the check out lane. I change into a robe. Oops, my bad, it’s a habit. I’ve had a ton of doctor appointments. Sorry ’bout that. Awwwkwarddd.
I finally got to tie-dye my leg supports. They’re very cool. Not only will my circulation be supported but I’ll be in style. No geriatric stark white for this girl. I got flames. That’s right, yellow and orange flames on white support hose. Watch out!!! Here I come flames and all. Of course I don’t show the flames, they’re under my pants but I know they’re there and I think they’re super cool. I also have a pair of salmon and white tie-dye pair. I hope to soon make a rainbow pair. I won’t know what to do with myself.
So that’s where I am right now, struggling in flames.
J of A <— laughs and cries but mostly cries
Sounds like a good house purging may be in order while Fife is gone. Would he miss it if some stuff was “discarded?” Is that something you could do? Not sure if you’d want too. Especially if you think the prospect of moving is a good one.
Do you have universities in your area? If so, check if they have classifieds. Bet you could find a dorm fridge there toward the end of a semester, even the summer semester.
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I bet some stores will have sales on dorm fridges soon as the fall and a new school year starts. I got mine at Walmart for $80. Not cheap but I didn’t have time to hunt for a deal.
The lowest I’ve seen at Wal-mart is $125. This one here would work super well. Good size, good rating, good brand.
It didn’t occur to me until last night to go to the university and either post my need or look around in the student hall for signs that one is for sale. Truthfully, I think if I’m going to want a new one because of it’s warranty. If I tossed out even 50 bucks for something that stopped working a month down the line or doesn’t work properly I’d be pissed. I don’t know…….
Around here (and its a major metro area, not sure about where you live) the Jewish Community matches up ederly people with younger people as roommates. You don’t have to be Jewish just be willing to live with an elderly person. I don’t believe there is any “helping” out necessary.Its more a safety thing.Rent is usually quite cheap. Might be something you could look into up your way.
We have many of the same triggers as you do…mice will send us sleeping in the car, booms of any kind are reminders of being shot and lets don’t even talk about roaches. Screaming time then. sigh.
Good luck with everything!
That’s a good idea. Thanks for that.
I don’t know how we managed to not have roaches but we don’t. Thank God for that.