Dream Commentary: Making Space and Surviving Pt2

COMMENTARY:
That was one incredible dream, just incredible. Some of the things that stand out for me are the obvious connections to the house I live in now and the condition of the houses I lived in as a child. The filth is very much the same. The mice situation is out of hand like before as well. I was also struck by how I made the best of the situation and made space for these people to be more comfortable. My sister’s roll in the dream was submissive as in real life. My mother was inactive until the end of the dream where she was cold and unmoved by what she saw.

I figure these people in the house were insiders, alters created when needed.
I also think it’s interesting that instead of mice being caught in the traps specific animals not usually caught in a mouse trap lay there lingering. None of these animals were dead. They were in the traps suffering but not dead. Then a snake turned into a fish who instead of being returned to water was thrown in the garbage can to suffocate and die. The suffering was without cause. I didn’t want to see it but my mother called me back.

RECURRENT DREAM THEME: Alter personalities, the 4^th grade house, the Bible as protection, submissive sister, me in control until the mother takes it.

FEELINGS UPON WAKING: Exhausted, nervous, intrigued by the dream

DREAM SYMBOLS

Here are animal definitions from dream dictionaries. Each link goes to the definition of the individual animal not just the website.

Moth
Dream Dictionary – moth to a flame
The Curious Dreamer -  Feeling drawn to something or someone, or someone who feels drawn to something or someone, a nuisance or bother, a need to focus on the “light,” a Higher Power, your higher purpose, or optimism

Frog
Dream Dictionary – positive transformation
The Curious Dreamer – Moving forward in leaps, possibly amongst long periods without apparent progress, Making progress in ways that don’t appear to move directly towards a goal, such as through trial and error

Snake
The Dream Dictionary was rather unclear and unhelpful with possible reasons for why a snake appeared in my dream.
The Curious Dreamer -  Sneaky, stealthy, or passive aggressive,  A challenge or potential attack,  Perception of a sneaky action or intention, possibly with an element of sneak attack, Perceived toxic or ill will.

Fish
Dream Dictionary – often a strong religious symbol, also considered representative of the unconscious mind.
The Curious Dreamer seems more accurate for me in this particular dream. This is what they say about fish.  TCD-   Lacking emotions, or diminished mental and emotional capacity, Cold or impersonal, Adept in a certain environment or a particular pursuit, as in a fish’s expert ability to “breathe” and swim in water.

For me The Curious Dreamer is dead on for these symbols. It makes sense I’d have this dream directly after the exhausting therapy session I had today. We talked about self destruction as well as feeling unequal to my mother or much of anyone else. We talked about closeness and my need for it but my fear of it. For me the session was intense and exhausting. I wanted to come home and sleep so I did, the above is the result of that nap.

Dream Commentary: Making Space and Surviving Pt2 - Wednesday, July 08, 2009 – 10:33PM EST