Daily Archive for September 20th, 2009

Your Fears Erased

Published on September 20, 2009 in For the Record and Therapy. 17 Comments Tags: .

I ran across this photograph today and was immediately taken by it. The concept is without a doubt powerful and provocative so I thought I’d use it in an entry. Some of the words and phrases that appear several times are: failure, no hope, dying alone and unloved.

If you stood in front of this board what would  you write? Here’s your chance. There’s one piece of chalk left and it’s your turn to write down your fear. Continue reading ‘Your Fears Erased’

Cessation Diary

Published on September 20, 2009 in Art, For the Record and Medical. 0 Comments

I’m still out here. Today is day 6 of not smoking. My brain felt fried the first two days. It was fried but I wasn’t anxious like yesterday and today. In order to deal with it I kept my hands busy and doodled. I am not paperless. I didn’t have that much anyway but after making it through the last two days I’m paperless. More on that later.

My basic symptoms are fatigue , frustration, restlessness, anxiety, irritability, problems with concentration, stomach pain, nausea, chills. The hardest ones to deal with are restlessness and anxiety.

In general the craving for nicotine cycles every 40 min with severe cravings lasting only 5 min. I’ve felt the strongest cravings in the last two days which made 5 min feel like 5 hours. It has helped to set the clock to let me know when my body is going to settle down and figure out it’s not going to get any smoke. If I can make it through five minutes then I’m okay.

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